Hambergur

2009-06-15T11:32:00.003+08:00

OKAY IVE MOVED.

Well im moving cos like....this blog is too filled with spam.

though i wont close it down la. too many memories (kimak kentalnye saya).

OKAY NEW LINK DUUUU

www.mymomhasfacebook.blogspot.com

GO VISIT KAY HURRAY

2009-06-03T10:47:00.000+08:00

Just completely fuckintastic.

I feel like ive been brought down to fucking secondary school again.

What the hell seh im better than this shit.

2009-06-01T14:12:00.003+08:00

If Production we're to be one of my graded core modules, i think i would so get a distinction.

Its like my life's being run by it and it alone. Everything else pushed aside, school work, friends, ngaji...hmm well...not all though ;).

It feels great. Exciting, scary, worrying.

Even though it's not for sure. And it'll take so much time. I still can't believe it.

But im still torn between two thoughts..

Yesterday's 'advice' hit the spot. Really.

If you're getting busy, you're in trouble. And there's always the risk. Haiz.
Sinful pleasure.

But i think i want to go with the flow see. I know it feels wrong sometimes.
But it's great all the same.

Window
Window
Window.

This week has been topsyturvy.

But have anyone of you noticed that i've been smiling a lot lately? =).

If only they knew.

Cockroach Girl, I miss you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I found out that my mom's going to Dubai.

And that my family's going to Malacca.

And im stuck here.

Why can't anybody understand that i need a holiday.

Umrah IS a pilgrimage and definitely not a holiday.

And eventhough there are many pros on venturing out alone.

The family is always missed.

Okay so maybe we fight a lot, us siblings.

And maybe i am anal retentive at times (the firstborn syndrome?)

But i feel as though my efforts to involve myself with family...isn't really appreciated.

Ill always try to find out about the random gatherings and all that.

Trying to keep myself free in hope of any of them sprouting out.

But there'll always be times when i return into an empty home and find out that everyone went out together.

There'll always be times when i wake up into an empty house and find out that they went out.

It's true, what they say, that you never notice what's always there and will always notice what's not.

Ah...well...cheers to a birthday during camp then.

But honestly, thank god i have you to look forward to.
Really.

2009-05-24T13:10:00.002+08:00

Okay yes its been a really long time (not so long on the count that i took down a CANNOT BE HEBOH HEBOH-ed post because im such a vain egoistic male spawn)

hahaha!

Well the reason behind the near total non-existent updates is due to my unbelievably packed schedule.

Dominated by three main things that runs my daily live.

School, Drama, Ngaji.

I think drama's the worst. You can escape school and neither that i (maybe not you) would want to escape from religion.

But drama is...whoa. 50% of my convos are about it, 50% of my thoughts are about it and im doing stuffs that are related to drama 50% of the time!

Kaye must be really annoyed by my EH PRODUCTION EH PRODUCTION EH PRODUCTION nagging each time i see her.

But hey when you really love something you tend to really get into it yea?

yesterday was stagearts night 09!
IT WAS GREAT! AWESOME (lol cue faris) and TOTALLY SPECTACULAR!

And to people who think that it is so very easy to act as a nerd...THINK NOT.
Sweated (is there even such a word) like a pig.haha. And cramps all over especially after the 'MUMMY I WANT TO SHEE SHEE' part! haha.

But the audience loved it on the count of the enormous laughter.

Pics will be uploaded soon. On facebook of course! So to those who dont have facebook. Get one losers!

And i can't believe that we've been able to keep the 'i dont know you so well' thing up. haha!
But its great acting on both parts. Kate actors perrr.

Reminder

2009-05-10T10:29:00.002+08:00

Well so its been a really really long time since ive update yeah?

For about maybe....2-3weeks?

I still can't believe that it's nearing the middle of May. Time flies so fast.

Speaking of time, whilst clearing out unwanted digital debris from my computer folders,
i chanced upon this particular video.

"Donald Hump's Crew"

I realise that it's the IPW video of my group that was shot in...well, sec 3 i think.

As usual, put 5-6 boys with raging hormones, utmost cheekyness and the lack of self-consciousness into a group. You'd get laughter, laughter and dirty jokes sprinkled on top.

Laughing out loud to myself while watching the video, i was reminded how it was like in secondary school.

Football, school, eat, football, school, football, football. Just the way we liked it.

Carefree, not knowing and especially, not caring what the outside world is like to us.

Not worrying about jobs, out our future, about which university would accept us.

No no, our world was confined in that little campus of our school, Jin Tai Secondary.

Filled with nagging but at the same time, fun, caring teachers.

Filled with friends whom you'd know and treat as as close as your siblings.

Of course, there's your occasional quarrels, fights and disputes...but what else would you get if you confine 500+ people into a small campus? (yes 500+ my school population was really small).

That said, i do kind of miss secondary school. My friends especially.
I wonder how all of them are now. Just like me? With new friends, new perspectives and definitely new clothes.

The iyad people had a reunion earlier and it was nothing short of a blast.

How about a Jintai reunion?

InsyaAllah. Amin.

(whoa Mono really puts you into the mood to blog heh)

2009-04-22T05:31:00.009+08:00

I never knew ice skating can be so punishing.

Both on the wallet and on the knees...well...knee.

hah hah.

Had a great outing with Shehzkalbi and her lovely friends.

Not much to talk about here...the moment's only for us and her especially.

okay maybe pictures la =).

Why so senget? haha

Oooh do observe the stark difference in skin tone. HAHA
(aku tall dark and handsome perrr)

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH HAPRAK!

Murneh, Ireh(on the railing guide thingy HAHA), Nuzzeh.

Yeah yeah you look white here la okay for once okay. Must be cos of my teeth haha.

Shehz: DEYY MAKKALS!

You fail as an actress hahaa! Worlds most fake surprise.

Superrrnice (except the nuts...i dont like nuts)

I have no explanation for this picture. hahah!

I LIKE THE ABANG2 LOOK HERE I LIKE HAHAHAHAH

You like the lighting? you better cos it was so damn hot.

Doa makan. HAH

Alalala tangan tu lembut nye bang. (and my teeth arent that yellow okay it was the sunlight's reflection thingy)

Fatmah

Murny.

TOILET GIRL.

HAHAHAHA

Eh everyone in the world should view my blog to look at your expressions sia kalbi

Nuzzi and Irah

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH.
Fatmah's utmost gorgeous moment!!!
Shes gonna kill irah first then kill me HAHA.

Oi minah tudung ape dekat2!? haha

Take one

Take 2

Take away suah

HAHAH CB I LOOK SO NARUTO.

Ceh ceh clubber kia

Practicing for national day haha!

Paraparapro

Mucus girl

This is called the HAMM and its trademarked mafakas.

fun fun fun fun clubcrawl later.

yes i was quick to judge too and im sorry and it feels good to have heard what was said.
=)))

A book, a paragraph.

2009-04-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

It is a wonder, a miracle.

How a book, changed the world.

It is a wonder, a smaller one.

How a paragraph, changed the outlook of the reader.

I want to feel the fear again.

The love again.

The happiness again.

The sense of want.

The enthusiasm.

Which has been dissipating, drop by drop.

Drip drop drip drop.

Like rain. Rain.

Rain.

A blessing from above.

Helps to start, stop, restart life.

As the will of its maker.

I want to feel again.

Zoo

2009-04-11T12:18:00.007+08:00

Okay so maybe this post is a little bit late but better late than never i must say.

AND YES THE PREVIOUS POST WAS IRONIC. I WAS SLEEPY OKAY. And dont tell me you guys have never made silly ironic typo errors sheesh.

So i went out with the gang to shag's kampung (zoo) last...erm...when was it again...tuesday?
Yes tuesday as it was Sakinah Vampire/Cupboard/Nampak Hantu's birthday.
And before you jump to any conclusions. Sakinah turned 20 (yes i was surprised at the zoo plan too).
But who says it's wrong huh? you're never too little or too old for the zoo. (except if you owe money you cant repay and plan to jump into the tiger pan(pen?cage? enclosure? whatever).
And it did help that Ash's uncle or rather Syamim Greenboy's dad is the financial thingy of the zoo and thus..HALF PRICED TIX EVERYONE!.

It was really fun, if not tiring other than some very very very very annoying one.
The animals were really stinky and Ris & Dee needs to chill.(HAHA)
The only minus point is that the zoo is a real money sucker.
I had 50! and now im left with 10. Why how i dont know. and i didnt even buy any BEN AND JERRY'S! Thank god dee and syamim bought some and me being the tak-tau-malu-nak-SIKIT-PLEASE!...well...you know =).

Well once again, a picture tells a thousand words...and pictures...well....do the math!

Other than that, caught Hot Future For The Prospects at cine yesterday.
Wouldve stayed for Easy-Kill but due to the...noisy atmosphere and really really really lousy band..s...=D, i left for ikins.
GOSSIPGIRL MARATHON AGAIN!. GOSH I LOVE SERENA AND AARON ROSE SHOULD DIE BUT HIS EX IS HOT SO SHE'S NOT SO BAD BUT SERENA SHOULD BE WITH DAN AGAIN OKAY OKAY (HERE ME OUT SCRIPT WRITERS!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Yes i have a major celeb crush on Serena Vanderwoodsen (SARAVANAN cb ris) and im not afraid to admit it (so do the other million guys who watches GG out there).
Fun fun fun! Too bad school's gonna start urgh.

And to some people. Orang baik2 korang pijak kepale. Fine lor. You guys asked for it.
I dont really give a flying fuck =).

Happy Birthday Kalbi. Though you're 19, to me, you'll forever be 15 cos well...u do stupid things.
Babybrahim babybrahim babybrahim HAHA.

THEM BEBOONZ

Hi...can i get yo numba?

Little monkeys...big monkeys. haha

Aku freaking cherryberry...eh...goosecherry...gooseberry?

Nope nope no resemblance....maybe the stomach.

LUQMAN!

EVEN MORE LUQMAN

This is what happens after being single for so long.
Happiness in animal kisses.

Panas pe joy?

I BET THAT THIS BABOON IS TYPICAL MELAYU RELEK JACK.

New animal species

duuuu

Macam matair -____-

Luqman...what...big...hands you have. HAHA

The goat is just like whuut?

VE ARE THE ORKZ OF MORDORX!

Our clown car.

THATS my 100% Ria Misteri Jam 12 tuning minah look.

AWWW. LION..erm...GOAT KING

AHAHHAA MUKE CLAY AIKEN SIAK!!!

2009-04-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

YA KK TYPO ERROR BROSURE BROCHURE BIG WOOF.

haha the irony lol.

School

2009-04-06T13:56:00.003+08:00

So it just hit me.
Hoo freakitty hoo schools gonna start soon.
Excited? Perhaps not.
It's ironic on how school is the place where you go to enhance your intelligence.
But honestly, mine will be drained.
Me doing IT is like...An artist doing admin work.
No no i'm definitely not an artist (i am 99% sure that i failed art in sec 2 and am proud of it).
But it's the school no?
Yes the subjects are dry and all that.
But it is the people.
Take someone who grew up speaking english.
Who went thru 10 years of extra (expensive mind you) english tuition outside.
Who prides himself (im not proud but i like the way i am) with his command of the language.
Who feels disgusted with himself if he forgets to wear cologne (yes kin i did go home unbathed but the situation called for it)
And place him in a bloody shit hole filled with...
notoriously atrocious english speakers, with really lousy fashion sense and ludicrous hygene.
Oh God save me.
Why did i go into this course...i dont know.
THEM COURSE BROUSURES LIE!
Oh don't get me wrong. I'm all in for finishing it on a high (semestral gpa 3.5 baby!)
BUT BUT!...Bismillah InsyaAllah Amin I WILL NOT GO INTO THIS LINE.
No matter how bright the prospects..HOT PROSPECTS FOR THE FUTURE HAHA NOR HAKIM AFIQ RAHIM.
But i guess...things would'nt be so bad right?
I mean...new class? Networking specialisation?
Mon and tues 9am-6pm?
Networking = unbathed atrocious english nerdville?
Networking = dry dry dry?
oh god...who am i kidding O_O.

Had a XOXO GOSSIPGIRL marathon last night (ALONE...THANKS KIN)
I realise that...we're not exactly different.
Well, besides the dough, culture, sex alcohol drugz.
We're all just post teens, young adults trying to make a name for ourselves.
Though...i do wish to meet and get to know THE local SERENA VANDERWOODSEN
(well...serena in a more...asian...muslim kind of way...personality la)
AND MIND YOU! not some serena tan sew ming or whatever $10 bugis street hot pants wearing excuse of a girl.
we'll see. we'll see.

Oh and did i mention, the holidays were full of fun with famillia?? =D

BBQ pit in the sand. Something you dont see everyday.

VIETNAMESE WAK SATAxZXZxZXxXzxZXzxZXzx

BEDAH AKA SAURON. haha!

Ah meng.
Oh not the statue...my mom.
HAHAHA.

A rabbit goes SQRKLE SQRKLE.

Yes magenta...more nothingness for you haha!

Pit Relek Katak.

2009-04-05T13:26:00.010+08:00

You can't decide by sight alone.
They look fine but it doesnt mean you would be.
I dont know.
Maybe its my 'ability' of foresight.
But where will this lead us to this time?

My mom just bought a milo tin sized tin of nacho cheese and two huge bags of nachos.
Its so random, its hilarious!

Its one thing to hang out with friends.
Its another thing to eat.

ITS A WHOLE DIFFERENT THING TO HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS WHILE EATING BBQ.

haha!

Pit Relek Katak. For the kataks to chill and commemorate Nor Hakim Bin Dol Karim's awaiting 4 month long attachment to hongkong tak mandi + korek hidung anywhere land. (ironically....he was the only one who got diarheaa after the bbq...siape yang sabo?) haha.

Organised by Afiq Rahim...advertised by Shiking (SO MUCH FOR DEPAN 711!)

Ive never felt that bbqs could be so tiring. Maybe that was cos i was unvoluntarry volunteered to be the night wak satay.
Details would just bore you i guess? so i think the pictures would tell the whole story this time.
Check out my facebook for more pics cos im uploading only a number of them.

Nadia....i think??

SHEKENKAY.

Penjual Rokok Haram.

ArrcheewwwArrsssyrraff.

HYDHIR BANGON AND HELP LA YOU PEMALAS PIG.

Finally. Our 'Failure Tent'.

Hakim's secretly checking out his muskels.

Ni la budak2 hot prospects.

Cranky and Action.

Da bis jual rokok, jual pantat pulak? (whats with me and malay today zomg.)

Them bored wak satays.

Mat (mat as in floor mat not mat rep) Sex

Beach Sex

HAKIMS TENT SEX DANCE HAHAHA.

Apek style tent pitching. Only by the one and only sacrankynah.

Shikin hurt her back bbqing shicken.

These people la. Tak tolong masak tapi makan je (okay la aku anak melayu so ill speak malay)

This wak satay is as hot as the bbq yaw ;)

This is what happens to you if you lie on the mat without helping to bbq.

With a wak satay like this...no wonder the chicken wasnt cooked. HAHA.

fadlul muke caveman gile sak.

HAHA JOHN CHAN FROM PLAINSUNSET EVERYONE WOOOH!

Ultimatuuu convooduuuuu!

The Cardigans even joined us. HAHA

Tacit Aria's impromptu lepak recording sessionduuuuu

Class photo. Yeah macam faham.

Khid fighting with ris over diyana HAHAHHAHA

Half burnt, half uncooked. Just the way we like it =).

Im not in much of the pics cos i look haprak lol.
And i think im the only guy with short hair.
COME ON GROW HAIR GROW!!!

Change

2009-04-01T08:48:00.003+08:00

What happened to the ilham of last time?
Since when did arrogance, egoism and being an asshole creep into my life.
But the ironic thing is that, i see it happening.
It's like being trapped in your own body, knowing your actions, wanting to do something about it.
But you cant, or rather, you wont.

Why?

What happened to the patience.
Did it just leave?
Did it get sick of the soul it was present in?
What happened to the strive to be nice?
What happened to the forgiving and forgetting.
What is with the grudges nowadays?

Arent you supposed to grow better and wiser when you grown older?
So, what happened?
Another ironic thing is that i talk about Islam.
Islam, Islam, Islam.
The religion that teaches, emphasises and to an extent, forces good manners upon you.
The religion that teaches that if you were to gossip about your friends, it's like eating each other's corpses.
The religion that teaches that if you hold grudges, the forgiveness you seek would be put on hold.
The religion which clearly states that good behaviour trumps other aspects of worship and it's the one that god loves most.

I stared into the eyes of patience.
Or rather, was given a chance to be.
And what? I carried on, stubborn, when i know that i am actually in the wrong.
The change on their faces. From just advising to...being angry?
It still haunts me.

What happened to the old me.
One who prides himself with being nice.
Yeah to the people who says it's....kental?
Fuck you.

When will i change again.
When will the old me return.
It's not exactly little miss sunshine living in this shit.
And the sad part is..

I needed to read a bloody blog post to realise.

2009-03-25T10:50:00.009+08:00

Look at the stars.
Look how it shines for you.

23rd March 2009 will always be deeply embedded in the far reaching depths(okay la not so far reaching) of my memory as the day where i went to the GREATEST CONCERT EVAHH.

Like seriously, paying only $91 bucks, this was so much better than say, Deathcab(Im sorry but i still love you kay? =) ) and all the other concerts that ive been too.

Tight, random, surprising and brilliant!

I (almost) cried at postcards and screamed my lungs out at YELLOW!

Too bad they didnt play shiver though booooo but still i love all of you coldplay people (band members i mean...no the fans...esp the tall ceena irritating bugger and the one who kept dancing like a duck) HAHA.

Some pictures to feast your eyes with! (credits to Poison Ivy)

Dee (Ivy beracun), Ikin the cuz and yours truly =) (kimak my hair flat)

HURRAY!!!

JONNY WITH HIS SKILLZ THAT KILLZ

LUCKY BASTARDS SIA REALLY.

Ants in mah pants.

Lovers in JAPAN!

No this is yellow and is so not postbox and postbox can never be compared to coldplay so shut up sakinah hmph.

INI BANJO BUKAN PIANO.

Thatll be me soon one day insyaallah amin.

Caught in the awestruck moment.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WANT THEIR GEAR!

Ballz of fury.

AHAHHAHAAAAAA I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THAT I FORGOT THE LYRICS TO SOME OF THEIR SONGS AND JUST HANTAMED BOLA AND SANG LALALALLALAL AND I THINK THE INDIAN LADY BESIDE ME TOTALLY HEARD ME. BUT SO WHAT RIGHT.

Oh and yesterday i went out with Saleha Big Eyez, Kamariah the Kalbi and Fadlul the dog/goat.
Im the only normal one heh!

Had so much fun, with lots of laughter too of course.
Its been so long since we went out with each other.
And us being us and mariah being the pemalas, our plans kept changing from badminton to movie to bowling to no bowling to westcoast to cardgames o_O.

It was great to finally go out with people who you could regard as being in the same wavelength as you religion wise. There can be no...courtesy constraints in our conversations, no holding back, us sharing the knowledge that we've all garnered so far. And with comfort in the thought that we all know that we're all practicing what we've learned (or...maybe not..sometimes).
It just doesnt get any better than this.

The trip totally reminded me of our times in Mecca and Madinah (we all went to umrah together)...well of course during that time we we'rent so close to them social wise.

From getting lost during the tawaf, noticing leah scurrying ahead while Sa'ee-ing.
Going round and round and round the Mecca city center mall.
Breaking fast right at the lift lobby.
Laughing, joking, praying and so much more.
Its a wonder that just one trip could bring back so much memories of THE trip that we had.
Alhamdulillah, that Umrah couldnt have been better than it was (but then...insyaallah it could la who knows.

Well, there is one thing that the four of us know and treasure oh so deeply...

God is the Greatest. And Muhammad is His Messenger.
=)

Picturez!

Timur Vs Barat.

EEEEHHH I LOOK FAT SHIT SIA EEEEEH.

Kamel-ariah and Fart-lul.

Maria pose.

Busstop buggers.

Nak step tangkap jambu la tu sheesh.

THESE EEDIOTS CAN CAMWHORE ANYWHERE

Walking rotten banana.

HAHA HIDUNG GATAL.

My poker face.

Babi Level 3 haha!

Tard.

West Side Pocongz. (and one east side sesat)

354 bebeh. (inside joke)

~~~

Too bad its quite on a different wavelength and level.
If not, it would've been perfect.
But it's okay.
We'll see what God has in store for us.

Izin

2009-03-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

You will start to miss something when it is not there.
But you would take it for granted if it is always there.
I've been missing so much.
Ironic, cos i'd gladly rush up and down and give up near priceless hang out sessions for it.
Cos i love it and its right.
Now, well, the cousins are back and it's okay to take a break right?
But i feel as though the consequences are creeping in.
Complacency. Contemplation. Cornstarch. heh.

Nvm, insyallah soon. Back to normal. =).

Community.
With a leader and his assistants.
With a leader, his assistants and his followers.
All gunning for the same goal.

Funny, one minute you'd think that you can get them all.
And you start to think...which one which one.
And the next, you're left with none.
Off, Bad, Busy.
Funny how one can jump to so many conclusions, before even reaching the point.
It's like thinking...whats next after heaven...before obviously getting there.
Maybe it's human nature.

Work has been so far so good.
Staple staple.
Bye bye staple.
Haha.
Sec 1 kids are so annoying. Idiots.

Waking up on a saturday morning.
With Actduex's Starfire playing in your head.
Toot-toot. Toot-toot-toot-toot-toot. Toot-toot. heh.
Went to ubin!
Mosquito galore. Especially with me and my sweet bloodeh.

Ubin tmr too. urgh.

I saw someone who reminded me of you.
Though, she's like 19-13 = 6 years younger.
You were perfect.
I was stupid, childish and down right hornily hormonal.
No you're happy and it has backfired on me.
Oh well. At least you're happy i guess. =).
Though, its funny how you said you missed me when you stopped replying halfway through a convo...
twice.
That's what i hate...insincerity.
But who could blame you?
Maybe if fate has it.
Then itll have it.
Im over it. Im over it. Im over it.

(yes naq i am emo. haha. Though i like your voice...very squeakily cute. haha)

LIVERPOOL!

2009-03-14T23:34:00.001+08:00

I know that it's been a really long time but...

WALK ON! WALK ON!
WITH HOPE! IN YOUR HEART!
AND YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!
YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!

HAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA 4-1 LA CB!

okay okay i know that the season is lost BUT STILL!!!! AAAHHHHHH

hmm...how can someone say that i treat her different, when she keeps doing the same thing over and over and over again? interesting really.

Friends

2009-03-12T23:51:00.006+08:00

It amazes me on how people make friends.

From events, school, places, friends of friends, friends of family, social networks or even at random.

There's no telling where and when your next new friend will pop up.

I stumbled upon this saying before; "When you're young, you'd have countless of friends, but when you're old, they'd most likely shrink down to only three".

Haha, tell that to my grandmother. She's always otp with her friends or chatting up with them when they come over. Thus, kampung life owns city life in terms of people you know.

Well, i dont really remember how i met this friend.

Oh ya, best friend liked friend, didnt work out, but still friends.

So like, i love it that we'd always make it a point to meet up and have dinner with lots of talk and laughter.

One of the things that really makes my world go round =)

Snaps from the outing with Sure-yeah and Father-loo!

Hello bebeh. Itz biznez time.

NAMPAK MINAH MINAH. DI BAWAH KOLONG.

Whore-licks madnezz!

bAbeE jEpoNzX

Sec school shit man. ABANG ANGKAT HAHA. ABG FADLUUUL. HAHA

Stare at her for a few secs. You'd definitely start laughing haha!

VE VILL BE EATING YOU MY CHEILD. NYEAHAHAHAHHA!

Selekeh nak mampos si budak ni.

Ordering food....with styley u_u.

Baby Jepun and Abg Baby. HAHA CB.

My burger face!

The rootbeer's giving me a good telling off. =(

Dont get MAD. Get Even. Esp with those nails haha.

My handwriting is an ARTFORM ASSHOLES!

HAHAHAHHAHA KIMAK MUKE!!!!

Our resident vacuum cleaner.

Eating like a king.

Ni la perangai budak east. Bodoh bodoh.

WEST SIDE MA FAKAS.

Sue, cheer up kay, and wake up early also. =)

Its alright

2009-03-12T10:53:00.002+08:00

I find it sadly funny. Okay more to the sad part.
That for our fellow Christian friends to go all proud and comfortable with their religion.
But not for muslims.
Say, for example, its easy to spot people wearing crosses stuff, reading bibles in the trains and busses, exclaiming their religious phrases (jesus christ, or hallelujah).

But for us, each time someone says out loud any religious phrases, everyone would go O_O.
And like, each time someone makes it a point to pray, everyone else would go O_O.
And be all sarcastic, calling them Ustat, Imam, etc etc.

Okay, im not calling for a sudden influx for religious trinkets (well cos theres no need for wearing necklaces or earrings with Allah and Muhammad inscriptions on them, and plus, it is degrading and would not portray God and His Messenger in the highest regard).

But like, when was the last time you hear someone (youth, most likely), uttering the taus, basmallah, takbir and all the other High Praises and invocations.

Maybe, my perspective of this is limited to only my hearing and sights.
But once again this is my blog so thus, my opinions.
I'm not perfect and once again, prone to various hormonal, rebellious and society's obstacles (with the help of Syaitan's whispers of encouragement).
But it would do so much as to just...know and be aware of fellow youths just like me, struggling against all these worldly obstacles for the sake of Allah and yes, to be accepted into his Paradise on the highest level (Jannah, Firdaus) insyallah.

Granted, i do know a few, but well, on the lightest note, we're not really on the same wavelength.
Language wise.
Im not being proud and arrogant that I'm quite the english oriented.
I do feel very very ashamed of my self due to my flimsy grasp of my own mothertongue.
But what can i do, i was brought up this way (not blaming anyone HEHE).
So yes, i long to know someone, my generation, who's so much as in love in religion as I am.
Someone that i can talk to, and open up, and not hold back for fear of accidently touching a raw nerve (sounds familliar). But yes of course, the ever present fear of going overboard and talking about things that we have no knowledge of.

Religion is complex, i think.
But complexity is always an aspect of something very beautiful.
So this if Religion = complex and complexity = beautiful, religion = beautiful =).

Complex in a sense that, besides the ground rules, there are so many other aspects, rules and regulations and commands to follow and put into practice.
I'm talking about Islam here people.

It's really sad to see all those terrorists with their misintepretations of the Holy Quran.
And commiting themselves to something that's strictly forbidden; suicide.
Nabi Muhammad saw ever said (or was this mentioned in the Quran, i forgot) that if someone were to commit suicide here on earth, he or she would be doing the exact same action over and over again in Akhirot (afterlife).
Like whoa, blowing yourself up over and over again. Difference is that you do not die and that you feel every single inch of pain.

You've got to blame the people in charge.
But only god knows.

I feel that muslims of my generation should look beyond the rules, beyond the prayes, beyond the restrictions (and when i say look beyond, i dont mean to ignore okay).
And that they should look into the beauty of it, the history of it, the knowledge it brings. (Islam i mean).

Like say for example, some of us can be so interested in mythical beings, flying horses, angels, dragons, horoscopes etc etc.
Mentioned in the Quran? Angels, Jinn, flying horse-mules (buroq), tales(facts of course) of paradise, hell, and so much more.
Its so filled with history from the beginning of man, and even before that.
Thats why I said that its beautiful.

But, well, God with guide whom He pleases.

Why do i talk alot about Islam?
Because I'm proud and thankful to be born as a Muslim.
I love religion, God and his prophet.
I fear god.
and I want to go to heaven =).

Anyone who reads this and goes like, whatever la this boy (i do know a few who do)
well, up yours.

ADE ORANG

2009-03-12T00:24:00.002+08:00

I KNOW SOME PEOPLE WHO ACT LIKE SLUTS.
EEE JIJIK.
TAK SENONOH.
JIJIK! JIJIK! JIJIK!.

AND THEY ACT LIKE BUDAK KECIK.
GROW UP ALREADY PLEASE.
but the worst part is the sluts part la.
Then like that, can still talk about religion.
Bagus la tu, dunie danak kiamat.

I miss going to ngaji.
Ive missed so much lately.
But like, my cousins are here and all.

OH WHEN CAN I GET OVER THAT.
IM SUCH A SUCKER.
PUSSY.
PUSSY PUSSY ME.

KENTAL LA ITS SO OBVIOUS RIGHT.
why am i typing in caps anyway?
BEST CASE SCENARIO PLEASE.
though its impossible.

lalalalaaaaa.

If only YOU knew.

~~~Perfect~~~

A tale of two...cats

2009-03-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

I read a book.
Okay i lied.

No la i actually did and am reading a book about Nabi Muhammad's biography and its good!
=D.

There's a tale...of two cats.
Bu and Mo.
Bu and Mo were from the same kampung (not related), though bu knew mo from the tree they usually played at because bu knew the tree also.
One day mo felt that the tree didnt like her anymore (cos maybe its branches kept falling on mo)
So mo didnt play with the tree anymore but mo was still friends with bu.
One day mo met rock.
Mo really liked rock.
Rock is stupid heh.
But Mo knew that bu found rock first.
So mo restricted mo's self from playing with rock.
rock is so so stupid HHAHAHA.
Rock, (though stupid, still has a rock brain) went a lil too far while playing with bu.
Maybe they like...were supposed to play catching but played ice and fire instead (which means catching + 1 level up).
Rock wasnt too comfortable. So rock told bu and bu got really upset.
upset rabak punye ah joy.
but after how many donkey cat years, mo thought that bu totally got over rock (still stupid after all those years)
So mo finally approached rock (after all the time of pushing mo's cat hormones to one side).
rock really liked mo.
and mo liked rock.
And i like roti kirai but thats not the point isit?
So best comes to best mo and rock became partners in crime and catching (do tell me, what else can you play with a rock?)
So like when bu found out, bu felt betrayed.
eh this story panjang la.

kay honestly now, bu and mo has their own scratching posts.
Recently, bu has scratched really bad scratches on bu's scratching post.
And my god those scratches were some mean scratches.
Anyone who'd see that scratches will get a scratch twitch.

But mo's also sometimes asking for it.
Cos mo would pass by bu's scratching post to see the scratches.
and would get enough scratch twitches to get agitated.
and scratch on her own scratchpost with relatively mean scratch twitch giving scratches.

As a cat lover, seeing both scratching posts, i honestly thing its time that you both stop.
meaow meaow.

Bu, honestly, youre a really nice cat. But some or most of the time, you let your cat hormones cloud your judgement. And you take the cat friend commandments a little too far.
And to want to reveal the cat secrets that you have, thats just low. cat ghetto low.
Every cat makes mistakes. Its curiousity, its in their nature. But to know something like that and to use is as a threat, is as low as stale friskies.

Mo, you ah, really asking for it you know.
Birds say dont pass by the scratching post, you still do.
Yeah you're agigtated that rock hangs with birds and that bu hangs with birds too.
But rock hangs with birds for birds and not for bu.
Mo, you have rock already. and rock really likes you (though rock is so stupid duuuu)
So what more can u ask for mo?
Stop cat-gitating yourself with cat twitches by passing by the scratching post la kay.
You've scratched your peace. Be the mature but still young cat and just stop all of it okay.

Bu and Mo, i know that you'd read this cos ive typed it in cat meaow language meaow meaow mee soto.

You might hate me i know. But its high time you both stop this cat fight cos its affecting us birds.
Birds so fly.
Birds sky high.

Bu, you're getting over rock (stupid duuu), you've made new birds.
Mo, you're with rock, your current birds still hold you dear (contrary to what has been scratched)
WHAT MORE IS THERE?! HAPPY ENDING KAN.
Khalas, Syukran, paper or plastic, bye.

Oh, this has been written in cat language meaow meaow mee soto. So if any of you guys reading
could understand cat language meaow meaow mee soto. Please refrain from reading this. =)
(macam faham you kaypos).

Humble.

2009-03-02T11:07:00.002+08:00

As dawn breaks, yawns one.
It's not just a new day, another start, another opportunity.
Winds of change are blowing, from the east, from the west.
From any point of direction.

Enough, deviated enough from the initial, position.
Of character, of morality.
What changed you little sunflower?
Why did you die after being given water?

Oh the outer mould, that's the distraction.
When one's not up to it, and the innards have changed.
No wonder its all solitary.
That why the winds are blowing.

Lets boast,
Be proud,
Show the world.
That its here to stay.

Bubbles and Yellow Balloons

2009-02-22T22:17:00.009+08:00

It's 1.10 am and I've been sitting here all night clock watching.
As the pitter patter of raindrops gets louder by the second,
I imagine them, falling freely from the sky, away from their initial abode, the clouds.
Oh how I miss Sunshine, always the best amongst my friends.
I remember, when we were kids, we used to play by the bay,
thinking that we could fly at supersonic speed.
I remember each time, when I decide to switch on some music,
she'd say "I want discopop!" and we'd dance all night long.
Alas, they were all but just, a moment or moments, in the past.
A wave of cold air seized me. It's getting chilly down here.
I glanced up at the fire place and saw the dying flames though still bright in amber.
I finished up the last of my pudding.
As sweet as caramel, just the way i like it.
Wishing that tomorrow, there would be a letter waiting for me.
In my little
postbox.

It's one thing to be successful,
and its another to see the success of the ones you hold dear.
We may not be as close as before.
The times of esplanade gigs, crashing acoustic and jamming sessions, and
hanging out before and after gigs are long gone, sadly.
And replaced by the hi-byes and hugs, only.
But I'm still proud of you guys for making it this far.
And hell, it's only an EP, so there's still a lot more to achieve.
Yesterday was the best so far.
There will be better, i know.
But for now, Postbox, the romantics of the local music scene,
you deserve your glory =).

Some choice pictures for your viewing pleasure =)
(kudos of course to dee and ashrough)

Two very lovely ladies Barbra and Samantha.

Lookman and Ill-ham and Cleventine the pubic hair cat.

I KNOW U GUYS AND IM SORRY BUT I FORGOT YOUR NAMES.
except syamim greenboy.

Faderloo, sakinah-cant-take-vid-for-nuts, harithstshthst

COS HYDIRS GAY JEGT JEGT JEGT.

Wak wak kenduri. Zayd, WeiXiang, Syed Hafiz, Kenneth

The Romantics of the local music scence =)

Hurray

Shoe......OF POWER.

Master Shredder.

Master Drummer.

Master...Bass-er?

S-TEH-SI

Sam Master Singer/keyboard button pusher.

TEEHEEE

Sexy la tu

SEXY LA TU HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Have you wondered, why's my eyes so sepet~~~

Whoa bOi cHiLL

LULZ TWINS BAZZLE TWINS!

Us! though i look sucky.

Postbox~~~

Fad the irritating, cable rosak, guitar string putus, master strummer.

BUBBULZ

Sam's chipmunk face.

Konsentrasi.

I HAD FUN =).

At-Takwir

2009-02-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

At-Takwir (The Folding Up)

When the sun (with its spacious light) is folded up;

When the stars fall, losing their luster;

When the mountains vanish (like a mirage);

When the she-camels, ten months with young, are left untended;

When the wild beasts are herded together (in human habitations);

When the oceans boil over with a swell;

When the souls are sorted out, (being joined, like with like);

When the female(infant), buried alive, is questioned;

For what crime was she killed;

When the Scrolls are laid open;

When the World on High is unveiled;

When the Blazing Fire is kindled to fierce heat;

And when the Garden is brought near;

(Then) shall each soul know what it has put forward.

So verily I call to witness the Planets, that recede,

Go straight, or hide;

And the Night as it dissipates;

And the Dawn as it breathes away the darkness;

Verily this is the word of a most honourable Messenger,

Endued with Power, with rank before the Lord of the Throne,

With authority there, (and) faithful to his trust.

And (O people)! Your Companion is not one possessed;

And without doubt he saw him in the clear horizon.

Neither doth he withhold grudgingly a knowledge of the Unseen.

Nor is it the word of an evil spirit accursed.

Then whither go ye?

Verily this is no less than a Message to (all) the Worlds:

(With profit) to whoever among you wills to go straight:

But ye shall not will except as Allah wills; the Cherisher of the Worlds.

It amazes me, how a description so terrifying yet so mystifying,
and a warning so alarming,
are written and told,
in an utmost beautiful way.

And yet, this is only the translation.
Of Sentences, in a Chapter
of The Book, written by God.

MashaAllah.

One down, two more to go hurray!

Ironic

2009-02-15T05:14:00.004+08:00

Kay maybe come to think of it, i was jumping to quite the conclusion.

Bitching, is an in thing nowdays.
And has always been.
A blatant disregard of others, and how they might feel.
Cos u see, by talking about it, makes you feel great.
Powerful.
But what do you win? What do you gain?
Award? Medal? Cash Prize?
Or just a 5 minute high?
Friends, dignity, credibility.
Gone.
Is this all worth it?
No one blames anyone.
If its a one off thing.
Yeah maybe they did something.
But to dwell on it.
Over
and
over again.
Like a merry go round.
That doesnt stop.
But will end.
With a floor full of puke.
And an empty...playground.

Im terrified at the thought.
That. That.
It's too weird.
Of all people, it had to be you.
Funny, ironic and...terrifying.
You're the last person id expect,
and i bet i'm the last person ud expect.
Just a phase. Drifts away.

Flying high.

NEA

2009-02-11T23:09:00.003+08:00

This morning an NEA officer came to my house and discovered a pot full of MOSQUITO BABIES.
Damn.

I just woke up and looked as haprak as i can ever look.
So i quickly ran to the kitchen to rinse (komor komor)my mouth heh to remove, in vain, the mouth stench.

The NEA officer was this tudung makcik. Who, for some reason, was very jumpy.

She showed me the mosquito babies and took some samples and checked my house's kitchen and toilets and asked for my particulars.

But what's so peculiar about mak-nea officer-cik was that she kept saying,
"sorry eh dik jangan marah (sorry boy please dont be angry)"
and
"dont be angry eh dik, im just doing my job".

So during the whole time i was like...dude...im not gonna bash u up over mosquito babies.

But soon after she left it occured to me.

SHIT IM GONNA BE FINED $200 MOTHERFRAKAS.
WALAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
But then i dont blame her cos yes shes just doing her job and well my fam shouldve been more diligent.

BUT WALAU THAT $200 COULDVE BEEN MY COLDPLAY TICKETS.

nvm nvm cobaan.

BUT STILL ITS $200. STUPID STUPID.

I cant wait for exams to be over -___-.

I love this pic. (though i look abit botak tengah)
Guitar boy hur hur.
Now where oh where is my guitar girl. Please come soon =D.

Jihad

2009-02-10T23:34:00.018+08:00

On the way to meet up with the guys...and lady, i chanced upon a peculiar white clad arab fellow in the moulana mosque at raffles place.

He was asking for donations for them gaza people.

So as always, it was a ask, give, thank, smile, leave thing.

But after drawing cash to go buy some dinner, i met said rollie-pollie (lol fatmah's line)
arab guy walking towards the pub areas.

So i caught up with him and he went (pointing to the pubs) Kafir? Kafir?

So i thought, finally! someone with common ground.

So i striked up a conversation with him. Apparently he's from some place near kandahar and was here to collect donations.

His words, were always filled, drenched, laced with praises, supplications, prayers to Allah. His actions calm and collected (though he was lost, trying to find his way back to some mosque in little india).

He only got angry, and when i say angry i dont mean shout and curse but more like...a tad increase in tone when he walked pass the pubs.

Kafiruns he said. Along with some qoutes from the holy Quran. Kafiruns and yahudis (he shakes his head). Then he talked about it being near the end of times (yes it sure is).

The whole experience, really answered that answered question thats been nagging me for the past few days.
How to best emulate The Prophet.

I guess its like that dude.

He's a total stranger. Yet i felt very comfortable being alongside him. As if i knew him for a long time, as if he was blood. Till the point that i didn't want to go off. (i wanted to help him get to mustafa). Though he spoke little english and a microscopic amount of malay, i felt that we really could communicate.

Not by race, hobbies or what not.
But by relgion.
By the love of Allah, his prophet Muhammad saw, and his religion Islam.

Now that, to me, is the answer to the question that has deluded everyone from the mere peasant to the knowledgable.
What is the meaning of life?
Peaceful Submission to the Almighty.

Now what he's doing. Its the true jihad. Going into a new place. Filled with satan and sin. Alone, lost but with strong faith and will, to help the ones oppressed by the ones who are cursed.

This week is study week!.
yet, i totally wasted(not) by hanging out with gang.
=DDDD

Master Strummer

NYEAHEHHEAHHUHEAHEYHEAYHRAIEHFKJA:EFJAEFLK

Three MATsketeers

Stonehenge.

Megawati Serima.

bOi pAlaT

Techno Cocok langit lulz

Lydia Lim Lady Lumps.

Sweelee Advert

Shampooed. Conditioned.

EX EX EX EX EX WE HATE THIS PLACE WE'RE NEVER COMING BACK
NEVER COMING BACK WE'RE
NEVER COMING BACK.
Tard cafe.

Harith's fart face

to see collyer quay and raffles place,
the esplanade
and all of us.

Who gay?
MEE!

no comment

HAHAHA KINAH HAHAHAHHAHA.
Call me SmellMon.

Call me PoutMon

Im so doing like some picasso shit.

Ah ini da macam tard.

The day astroboy turned fug. HAHAHA

Thighs, knees, shins and feet, shins and feet, shins and feet.

Pakao Siao. aw aw aw.

PORNZ

HAHA LOOK AT FADLUL MULUT BLOWJOB

Hydir pussy didnt eat any donuts

I see you STUN DING DERE.

Donut boy donut boy.

SKNHS STNGZ

BoI cOmelX

NARUTOKUN. RASENGGAN!!!!

KAwaiiNeh.

bOizZ MaanJEkX

Cold.Gate.

Itu aku Tahu Goreng.

Kay shit i got tired of commenting halfway thru

reminiscent

2009-02-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

While sitting in the train otw home from school just now
and in mid sleep (see, we youth's don't fake sleep okay, we are sleepy)
i kind of recalled and incident when i was young
where my lil bro (izdi, whos not so lil now. okay not lil at all)
bought a bag and was really proud of it.

I don't know why or why or why i acted the way i acted
and tried to make a fool out of that bag and him
maybe it was partly due to jealousy?
and totally due to childishness? i dont know.
But come to think of it now, i really shouldnt have acted like that.

If only i was this old back then
maybe we could still have had that brotherly bond
maybe i could've been his guide, his role model
not like now,
same blood, different mentality, different personality. (diff belly hehe)

I miss the old carefree days.
Theres just that aura of chill.
When we were more concerned with what to do when we go down to play.
When we always looked forward to presents and hari raya ($$$)
When we always hated tuition and supplementary class.

Well, besides that fact, i do wish i had been a better brother before.
And maybe izdi wouldn't end up becoming some thoughtless good for nothing tub of lard.
Who sits infront of the com 247, listening to crap shit music.
And talks about girls as if theyre...well...

Well, if only.

2009-02-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

I'm still stuck at a crossroads.

Though i know which path to take.

Though the path behind me doesn't want to be left behind.

To strike a balance or to not.

It seems easy for some of them.

But maybe, that is not the way it should be.

I know which way it should be.

And i want to go the distance.

I just need a companion with me.

I can go alone just fine.

But it won't hurt to have someone too doesn't.

Someone who understands and follows.

Someone who'd share the same commitment and thirst.

Someone that id see eye to eye with.

Though id be taken away each time id look into them.

It's always about someone isn't it.

I just want a companion.

For life.

EXAMS ARE COMING. I AM IN STUDY MODE YES I AM AND IVE FINISHED MY LAST PROJECT YAY.

2009-01-22T10:10:00.002+08:00

I skipped class yesterday and i'm skipping today.
Oh naughty naughty boy.
But heck, them debarment exercise is over so what's there to worry about?

This semester has been smooth alhamdulillah.
The bulk of the projects are gone but with the common tests and exams looming around the corner,
i dont think i can take a break just yet.
But yesterday's lunchin munchin with faderloo and suck-intellectual-ah was really refreshing and totally made my week.

From the waiting for 5+ minutes for the train to amk (we should've took the bus)
then from alighting at amk and getting back on the train (to head for bishan)
reached bishan only to find out that delifrance was replaced by manhattan fish market
walked all the way to swensens to find out that we were at the back door
walked one whole round to the front of swensens only to change our minds
THE SQUEEZING OF LEMON JUICE ON MY ENTIRE FACE.
THE DISAPPOINTMENT OF THE MUDPIE BEING UNAVAILABLE
me finding out that i had a $5 MFM voucher that expires today HAHA.

Honestly (HOR-NESTLY according to one of my classmates...urgh omg the level of english -___-) , this is really one of the things that i love so much you know. Amidst all these...problems and such, which seems to be getting better of course. With PostBox @ homeclub on the 30th, David Sparkle's Texas thingy gig on the 31st (homeclub again) and Enry's birthday thingy at siloso to look forward too and of course them HOLIDAYZ.

I've been experiencing certain personal miracles, other people's miracles and seen some being tested by...'cobaan'...lately. Alhamdulillah. I can't wait for this sunday!.

I'm really in awe of my religious teachers' level of patience. Not at me but at their surroundings and all that. They always have that natural aura of calmness around them. They don't and may never let anger control them and will always pray and pray and pray. Honeslty (hor-nestly), i want to be just like them. To keep in check the temper, to not percieve people to be what i think of them to be, to not let anything affect you and to always turn to god. Its really hard but possible i guess.

Okay back to RAD.

Oh and yay! classes are ending in two weeks!
And im not talking about the workload.

Where are you?

2009-01-16T03:46:00.003+08:00

I can't stand it.

Its been what....more than a year.

Though each time i think about it, i feel as though that it's a stupid thing to think about.

There are a thousand and one ways to preoccupy your time.

But maybe, just maybe, i don't want those ways?

Two heads are better than one.

Now i long for the other one.

I made mistakes before.

I lied to myself and to the one affected.

I lied to myself.

2009's supposed to be better?

On the other had, it's the religious factor.

I don't know what to do.

I am at odds with myself.

I need, i want that shoulder of support, warm embrace, sweet voice and soothing sight.

But....where are you?

2009-01-15T17:08:00.001+08:00

Bloggers block. Bloggers block.

I want to go on a vacation. Bad.

I window you.

2009-01-12T09:22:00.003+08:00

I feel that we're all just commonly, secretly and unknowingly hypocrites.

Either that, or we just have a mutual, psychic understanding of not bringing up current 'hot topics' and end up fighting, arguing and spoiling the evening.

Just to point out, we're not mad, we do care, but we are just bored and don't see the point of it anymore.

So we're just trying to adopt a let-you-be-on-your-own-and-see-what-happens-then kind of tactic here.

And yes, maybe we should all just shut up and stop being hypocrites. Ill be the first.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(hahaha arabian belly dancers haha)....Why are you so busy girl? I miss talking to you man.

Hmm....what happened to the thick pig skinned keling pariah that i know?

Maybe its the tonnes of free time that makes things get into your head.

But why the increased sensitivity these days? Why i am that open with you is because i thought we were that close huh. Now even the tiniest things i say, you'd go all taken aback.

Frankly, do you really want me to but up a nice barrier and be all fake.

Get a job la. So you wont think so much about this stuff.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I should write up a list of stuff that i need/want to buy.

Acoustic guitar - $500
Driving lessons fees - $500 (estimated?)
Hair growing pillz - $ 33
Hair vitaminz - $ 16
New shirtz andz bottomz - $200 ++?
Facial washz - $ 50

Oh gosh am i that vain?

But the thing that i want most right now is....free time. =(

and girlfriend.....heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheheheheeee.....=D

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

OpenHouse 2009 was great! (except for the stupid stage)

We act you mar frackas.

2009-01-04T12:19:00.001+08:00

I want to spend time with...you

and you

and you

and you

not you

oh and definitely you.

Miss

2009-01-02T23:52:00.003+08:00

I always switch on Al-Quran recitations by Sheik Abdur Rahman Al-Sudais (thanks mom for buying the thingy when you went to hajj, i think).

How i wish i can recite it like him. Perfect, pinpoint tajwid without all the over-emphasised 'dengungs' and all that stuff. And at a pace that makes listening just right.

I mean, im not criticising the rest la but everyone has personal preferences. From music to Al-Quran recitations too. Some are just too slow and too monotone for me i guess.

But that doesn't take away the feeling of reciting it yourself while knowing that you're reciting it properly. It's a heavy task and test and so far ive been dragging along. But insyallah with added interest and perseverence, i'd manage to get thru that and continue.

And who knows, one day i might go all Hafiz and memorise every single huruf in the Al Quran.

Insyallah one day.

This also brings me to me missing Mecca and Madinah alot. Doing the rights of pilgrimmage and being in a constant mood to just pray, worship and supplicate.

Oh call me weird but I love my religion and am not a person to hide it.

Though at the same time, i'm still a teenager, dealing with hormones, girls and a very secular and open society so me flouting them rules are quite the norm. But that's between me and Allah the Exhalted. So you take care of your cheesefries and ill eat mine aight. =)

I really really want to go do umrah again or even Haji. Some of the Umrah gang would be going again this year and it falls during my holidays but i think id be doing my fyp, thus...no time =(.

But who knows, insyallah after graduating or NS, id find the time and money to do the Hajj this time. Oh how glorious would it be.

Well, everyday is a self jihad and so far...ive been in the middle.

This post is more of a self reassurance....or me talking to myself. But feel free to read or comment la okay =)

One for the eyez. Masjid Nabawwi.=) (its so much bigger than this la of course)

Selfish

2009-01-02T02:08:00.001+08:00

Am i.

really.

selfish?

=(.

Its been three

2008-12-29T22:47:00.004+08:00

I like to watch you sleep.

Well i like to watch you smile.

It's been three.
It's been three.
So don't worry,
and let things flow slowly.

Sweet dreams, lonely.

2008-12-26T01:31:00.001+08:00

WAHHH SEH FUXKING NICE LARR SEEYYYY.

KUDOS TO DANNY PHYO PHYO PHYO LOLOL PHYO PHYO.
I was his assistant for the day HAHAHA.
MORE PIX SOON WAHH THIS ONE NICE LA CHEEBYEEEE

Christmas eve

2008-12-25T14:29:00.003+08:00

Maybe im just bitter and boring lol.
Okay la okay la.

Selamat Christmas to fellow Christian readers.

Okay okay go enjoy your kayu balak kek, panggang ayam belanda and madu bakar babi. HAHA.

Hmm so how did i spend this year's christmas eve amidst all the pissed drunk shit faced partygoers?

Midnight cycling in the nice cold wind, chat chat chattin at the coffeeshop till 4am, getting ripped off on pathetic (but still nice) chicken chop and horlicks peng.

I've just realised. You can replace us all you want cos honestly, we're not at a loss.
Because we have us. And you have...whoever's with you.

Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality. Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality.
Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality. Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality.
Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality. Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality.

Oh oh Sunday's THE NEW YEAR!
Fuck gregorian. Lets go HIJRI FOR NOW.
Not that there's much religious significance in it i suppose.
Theres only two days and 4 (insyallah) sacred months in the hijri.
But YAY NEW YEAR HAPPY MUHARRAM 1430!
This sunday la.
Maybe in saudi they'd throw dates into the sky i dont know. haha.

YA MARHAH MARHAH.

Night Safari

2008-12-24T13:29:00.003+08:00

Hmm so last night me and the family went to the night safari.
Yes the animals were interesting.
But the fact that the entry fee, food and souvenirs there were OVER THE TOP.

Tshirts for $30++, VEGETARIAN BRIYANI FOR $15!? ICE KACANG FOR $5!
Hungry anyone?

But we were more entertained by the amount of foreigners there. Holiday-ers and the workers there. Till the point that we could hardly understand what the hooblah our guide was blabbering about. From the disastrous pronunciation of words and animal names to the really funny tones and added 'dramatic effect' to her descriptions.

I felt that the whole extra 1.5million foreigner population was concentrated right here in the safari (or sa-ferry to the guide). hahaha.

I mean, okay la you guys come here to work and all but what would them fories think of our language here.
Before anyone start to say that im being racist, im not. Because there are malays who can speak english well, and malays that cant, pillips who can, pillips who cant and the list goes on.

But all in all, the trip was very much enjoyable. And me and mum were jumping for joy when we found out that we would not be sitting near a couple of VERY SMELLY tourists.

Swensens after that topped of the day.
Too bad fatboy didnt join us today though. Dont know what's up with him....I think its the Im-just-too-cool-for-my-family phase lah.

oh sorry no pictures...of all times, we forgot to bring the cam hah.
I did got me a cool zebra shirt though (at the expense of my mom's credit and dad's nagging of unapproval).

Shit. talking about this reminds me of....PENGUIN MEAT O_O.

Finally sunk in.

2008-12-20T14:46:00.006+08:00

So, it has finally sunk in.

Oh no no, not because of the post that i got.

But the fact that we won't be seeing our seniors anymore.

=(.

God, i've never felt as old as this ever in my life.
I feel, responsible and ancient.

Was it only last april that i just joined stage arts?
That i felt so called 'safe' in the presence of my seniors.
That i felt that all i am to do is follow, follow and follow.
Not lead?

Was it only last year and a week ago where we would always wait for the seniors' announcements?
About events, rehearsals, practice sessions.
Rooms will pop out like magic.
Stuffs to use appear out of nowhere?
And now, it is all on us.

But lets take it step by step. And as a challenge yes.
And I admit, it does feel good to be in charge, even when you're only designated as an assistant.

Seniors, i will miss you, every one of you.

Farhana, your burokness.
Rabia, your tight hugs and scary stares.
Anjana your cartoon like laughter and drama guidance.
Syidah, your lepakness and fun loving aura.
Sara your sweet, cool, calm and collected personality.
Wawa, your gabra, makcikness and attention to detail.
Ina, your tendency to get shocked at every small thing.
Sihah, your fluffy voice and vainness.

All of you made my life in StageArts complete and never once mundane.

And i would really like to apologize,

I do admit that im not really Mr Nice Guy.
I admit that there were times when i complained, whined, sulked, cursed and of course, talked behind your backs.
There were times when i really did not feel like coming, helping, participating.
And i knew that you knew it.

But what i can say is, I am certain that i'm not the same person as I was in January,
or even in June.
And it is all thanks to you guys.
Who molded me in every different way and angle possible.
And i really appreciate it, alot.

I love all of you.
And i promise that as appointed Assistant Drama Head, that i would do everything in my power to keep up the already high standard.
And of course, bring it to the next level.

And hopefully, to emulate your success, and maybe, to have a fellow junior blog about it when i step down next year.

Thank you my dearly beloved seniors.

Runaway From Danger Girl and Miss Distract.

RAFD Girl and The Shaman.

Stretch and RAFD Girl

Our beloved batch!!!

The Year 1 & 3 play.

Year 2 seniors play yay!
ACCORDING TO MY PREDICTIONS!!!...hahah!

Zee emzeez

Our very own composer! Ewwwwnice eeeeee haha.

Si due pat seblah kanan tu tonggek mau apa sih?

Makecouples!
Wawa: Macam nak kawing gitu eh. haha

MCH guys

EEEEEEEEEEEE PORN

THATS TWO GUYS HELLOOO

And thats a guy HELLOOOO!

Nyehhh.

Thank god i didnt make a mistake!

After all the last minute practice

Ill miss the three of youss

Thank you so much guys for coming! It meant so much.
I love all of you =).

I really need to invest in a good camera so i won't revert to stealing pics from others HAHA

2008-12-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

Big walks and sweetest smiles.
Penguin meet and ant's slippers.
hah.

Syukur Alhamdulillah-hiRabbil-Alameen.

Muhammad Ilham Bin Othman, Assistant Head of Drama.
Does have that nice ring to it doesn't it?
Heeeeeeeeeeeee =D.

To passerby.

Everyone does things on impulse. Usually it's bad.
Others call it in the spur of the moment, Muslims call it Syaitan's whispers.
Yes i did write that post on impulse...
but...

who the FUCK are you to care?
Fuck you la if i would wanna write about my whole family that's my fucking problem not yours.
Please don't try to be some religious preacher or what not, trying to say this and that.
I am answerable to my own doings so you mind your own fucking business please thanks.
You wanna talk about Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.
In my opinion, we can do everything to emulate him, but he's THE perfect human being.
I know my weaknesses and flaws and i write with my own free will.
This is my blog you fuck shit so if you don't like it you dont read it la.
I myself know that i'd never substitute my siblings for anyone so who the fuck are you to care if i ever write bad stuffs about that.
You say its berdosa to call people bad stuffs or vulgarities, but its people like you who make people say this things.
And i wouldn't bother finding out who you are cos you're too much of a pussy to put your own name.
So as a passerby, you can pass this by, cos honestly, your thoughts aren't needed thank you very much.

Make Up, Make Out

2008-12-16T00:03:00.006+08:00

WHY.

3 COUPLES MAKING OUT.

IN FREAKIN PUBLIC

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Mer-lar-you largi.

I mean, you wanna make out, thats your problem BUT IN PRIVATE PLEASE THANKS.

ITS NOT SWEET, ITS DISGUST!

Unless...you know...in personal terms...NYEH.

Today was the last drama session.
And ironically, we didnt do any drama.
Had a half failed, half almost failed surprise LOLOL.
And a very sweet and hilarious reminiscent session.
All in all, its very daunting to be a year 3 senior soon.
Committee or not, ill still love drama and acting and my drama mamas and makeup cows.
=)

And to you peeps who don't know what i do during cca when im not acting....

MAKE UP TEST LULZ!

MCH YEAH

All fighting over the sad poor mirror.

Gold-ina

Ina and Sihah the sihat

I AM GRASSHOPPER MAN HELLZ YEAH

Yat

Rab

COW

Lizurd

FIFI - KETAWA BUROK HAHAHAHAH

Naqiah =D

HAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA BUROK SHIT

Danny

Wawa

HAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAA MORE BUROK SHIT

And to those who think that i was cool....
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GRASSHOPPER MAN!!!!

Asshole

2008-12-10T12:14:00.002+08:00

I promised myself to be nicer to him.
I pray everyday that he'd change.
and that i'd be a better brother.

What do all of us get?

Fuck man. If he were'nt flesh and blood and if this were my house, i'd kick him out by now.
To hell with him, he can jolly well rot in the streets.

He has no damn good reason for his attitude and behavior.

We're not even from a fucking broken family.

Thus shows how bloody hell ungrateful that asshole is.

Yes yes maybe i may not know how it feels like from the parent's point of view.
But is he bringing any joy to this family???

Why always give in to him at the expense of others?
Why force us to give our stuff when ITS A FACT that he's an idiot who doesn't give a shit about taking care about other people's things?
Why go all the way back just to unlock the door just because he's so much of an idiot to not bring his keys?
Why risk the house's safety just so that he could get in when he forgot to bring his keys?
Fuck him la, he can jolly well rot outside till someone gets home.

Why do i always fight with him even though the problem doesn't concern me?
Because it pains me as the eldest to see the younger ones get bullied by someone with a buffalo as a body and brain of a fucking toddler!
Protect the weak yes. 15 versus 11 and 10. Whos the weak one?

Yes the little ones do know how to answer back and it IS rude.
But with a bloody hitler around them most of the time, who wouldn't? they need their rights to their own belongings too.

Whatever happened to asking nicely, please and thank you.
Are'nt we civilised?
Aren't we Muslims?

As a family we're supposed to share yes.
But there's such a thing as asking and not forcing when declined, however much you want it.
Because it is not yours.

I love you ma, pa.
Though i may not know how much you go through day in day out.
But i will never know what your plan is.
But there has to be a line drawn somewhere...

Being brave enough to talk back, answer or to raise your voice to your parents.
It's one of the 7 biggest sins in Islam.
Allah won't even look at you on Kiamah if you're one of them.
And heaven will be barred from you.

I don't want to be part of that just because of THAT idiot.
But yes its hard.

To the people related, don't comment if you haven't lived with him day in day out.

Atuk wuv

2008-12-05T01:33:00.004+08:00

I went to Fatmah's / babassssspiccesssss' house in the afternoon just now.
I like the house...its so...mellow...thats what id call it...mellow.
What caught my eye was a large portrait of her grandad on the wall.

It didnt strike me much till i got home and saw pictures of my grandad on facebook.
Uploaded by my dear cousin chachambo.

It made me think....

Tuk,
How would you be like if you were still alive?
How would you sound like?
Will i kiss you on both cheeks after salaming you just like i do to nenek and mama?
Would you be our family's strong pillar of faith, religion and ties?
What would you have done about all the conflicts that's been going around?
Who would you be? Who would you be?
I suddenly miss you atuk wuv.

InsyaAllah, we'll meet in heaven some day.
InsyaAllah.

Good old days? (im not in this pic though)

Good old days, not so good...situation. HAHA (cuzs, you know what i mean)

Cactus

2008-12-04T10:44:00.009+08:00

Cactus cactus.
Ive just hurt my left wrist with a cactus.
-____-.
Of all decorations ma, you just had to pick the cactus.
Cactus just had to be beside the laptop.
Hand just had to be GATAL.
haha.

Updates on my life;

4 TESTS DONE.
3 TESTS TO GO HAHA HELLZ YEAH.
Next week will be eid Al-adha. or eid'il adha? or aidil adha? or hari raya haji? haha.
There's gonna be some changes to my hari raya. But thats for me to know and for you to find out!
Btw, do fast this sun. The day before raya. InsyaAllah your sins a year before and a year after the day of fast would be forgiven. Now who wouldn't want that tell meh?

I had fun this and last week! =)

Sya's birthday!

Oooh..kinky.

Dragon Breath

CHEEBYE DEE WHY!

Chain smokissing.

Happy. (this comment seems...ironic...due to all my previous posts HAH)

Abang Syed and the gang

Zayd

I forgot the poor dude's name. Sorry poor dude.

Mmmm kenneth jangan gatal haaaa. Fashan looks ERMMM

Our chong.

The mad hatter

I WASNT POSING!

Street fighter!

Tak menjadi -___-

The only person i know who smoke thru her nose.

Cake face

Yum yum. This was really nice cake btw.

=)

HAHAHA SYA YOU CHIPMUNK FACE PERSON.

Can't them mongolian farmers have some fun?

MakeUp outing!

Liftwhores

Cam lift whores. Lift cam whores. Clift whores? HAHA

Me = relek jack.

I....have not comment.

Said.

This picture looks so edited =P

SERIOUSLY. Mightve been high on them frappucinos.

Cactus oh cactus.

I repent.

2008-11-30T00:39:00.003+08:00

Something that was promised.
To not be done.
To back off, run away or to ignore.
But the whispers, the whispers, the whispers.
I remembered. But did i fear?
I recalled. But did i fear?
I reminded. But did i fear?

Did i fear?

Whispers to the mind.
The mind to the heart.
The heart to the brain.
The brain to the hands.

I seek forgiveness, refuge, repentance.

It may seem small, in this society.
But what is this society?
Only minute in the whole game plan.
And we all know who's the best of planners.
It's only for awhile. It's only for awhile. It's only just this while.

I plead for acceptance.
For it won't be repeated.
By your will and your will alone.
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This is a story about three creatures.
No animals were harmed in the making of this story. (Not counting the pig giving birth. Twice)

Penguin went out with the pig and the camel.
The Penguin, The Pig and The Camel.
Looking for a pig sty.
Penguin thinks camel is cool.
Penguin thinks pig looks great in the pig sty.
Pig went to the toilet twice. -___-
Penguin loves eating kentuky fried chicken (oh the irony).
Penguin is afraid that camel would think that penguin is gay, deep down. haha.
Penguin wants pig to stop laughing when pig reads sentence above.
Penguin hopes to see how pig would look like on thursday.
Penguin hopes pig would really enjoy it and would finally attract a boar so pig wont complain
to penguin anymore about wanting a boar.
Penguin is kind of ticked that pig told camel that pig was kind of ticked with penguin this morning when penguin didn't know what penguin did wrong.
Penguin is not gay.
Stupid pig.
Penguin...misses having another penguin.
Such different creatures we are eyy?
Sally the camel has 1436 humps.
Insyallah itll be answered.

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ALALALAAAA SAYANG SAYANG DING DING NYER NYER NYERRR ALAAAA

Curiosity killed the cat. Kesian.

Radar radar.

2008-11-24T23:11:00.004+08:00

Just now when i was just about to alight from the mrt at jurong east station,
as usual, a crowd would form right outside the door, led by this apek.
When the doors opened, the guy infront of me just rushed out and crashed into the apek full on.
(apek was right infront of the door)
Yes it was so obvious that he did it on purpose.
The apek spun around in 360 degrees and looked both shocked, surprised and annoyed.

My thoughts?

YOU DESERVE IT HAHA.

I tried so hard to not laugh my ass off.
Fucking apek deserved it. He shouldve fell onto the ground. Maybe id give him an accidentally on purpose leg nudge.
Assholes like him deserves all the shit they get.
KUDOS TO GUY WHO CRASHED INTO APEK!
heeeee =)).

Ive decided. After this week i'll take my basic theory test! YES YES GET THEM BALLZ ROLLINGZ YES.

I was just informed that my close friend's boy friend knows and recognises me.
WHOA SHIT. People that i dont know, knows me??? whooaaa.
I remember foxmen. haha.

Well okay. Pheeg's coming back tmr night InsyaAllah.
InsyaAllah her holiday went alright and no harm befell on her.
And that maybe she did get my hot sexy nude lady from the nude beach over there. (HAHA YEAH RIGHT).

Heres a couple of snaps from the outing the other day. YES IT WAS SUCH A LONG TIME AGO SHUT UP.

Fad looks like Sarip Dol.

HAHHAA MUKA KONZ THE SEQUEL.

Wow those crackers are as round as me i guess...

Muck Err Corn Neck.

This pic reminds me of Abang Mamat. HAHA

=)

Ah mariah! Finally of all pics, you showed your natural face =)

Alone again

2008-11-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

Its 11.24.

All the chatter has ceased.

Funny, that last few sentences, stirred up deep sleeping thoughts.
No no, we had our chance.

Sigh, why are you going through this again.

You're just a sad sad lonely person.

Who's dependent...unfortunately..
very...dependent...

You miss me?.

Gone.

2008-11-23T19:54:00.002+08:00

You'd never know how much you miss someone until they're gone.

Well not gone-dead (na'uzubillah min zalik) no no.
But gone as in not on the island, network coverage.
Hah.

I feel as if there's a vacuum in me these days.
No i'm not referring to person mentioned above.
But in general.

Suck it up i tell me.
Its always a battle in my head.

I miss my friends, that's definite.
But i miss friend.

I miss the whole process.
Have never really continued pass the end stage.
It always ends after the end stage.
Wah sehhh.

Suck it up suck it up suck it up.

I want to get to know new people.

Loser

2008-11-21T21:51:00.005+08:00

Wahhh im such a loser.

Im stuck at home alone on a friday night.

Wahhhh im such a loser.

Wahhh cannot tahan leh.
Wahhh.

Stupid besties gone to bali.

Waahhh. Why am i not at the NOVOKIDS party?
Cos honestly i wouldnt be able to stand the alcohol around la. Sorry guys =(.

Wahhh cannot take it i feel like such a loser ahhh.

But i went for a swim! =D.

and according to sotong head, i can sit down and drink kopi like an apek at home.

But wahhh i still feel like a loser and i want a girlfriend and i want to eat good food and not get fat.

Wahh loser loser loser.

I miss SA and i wanna get to know FA. NYEH.

Ooohhhhh prettyyyyy eyyeeee cannddyyyyy girllllllllllllllllll in nyp lololol you will never know who lolol.

okay im hungry.

Did my inner matrep suddenly broke free? NEH its for the lunchtime play which was a blast!

My minah 'gf'

WAH THE EYEBROW 'CANNOT CARRY' SIA

Makeuppers

My inner matrep

Shit i look bonch.

Kaye Nakamura

'Like Understand' (macah paham?) only this botak

FARANA (farhana) SA PREZIDENZ.

Andy WHO HASNT TOLD ME WHOS HIS GF!!!

Nicholas aka ahbeng and crazy taxi driver in the play lol.

Girlfriend.

2008-11-19T23:48:00.003+08:00

Talked to the bestpet the other day and she was complaining of being single
and wanting to have a boyfriend.

Which made me think.
I do miss having a girlfriend i guess.
After a year plus of being single and stuff and yada yada yada.
This year hasn't really been THE year for relationships in my case.
Really miss that unlonely feeling and all that jazz.
And we always keep denying ourselves by saying that 'were still young' bla bla bla.
Oldies reading this, don't start okay.

But what i told the best pet was that, i don't think i'd find anyone who'd fit into someone whom i might like.
Yes im fickle. But girlfriends aren't really use, dont like and throw.
You can't try them out (okay i dont really believe in multi dates).
And girls nowadays are so materialistic.
Looks, cash rich, club. (this is what i think).

And honestly, i don't really care much for worldly possessions or positions.

Okay frankly speaking, i don't think there might be any girl that i might get to know...
who can tahan my religiousness.
Those who are very close to me would understand.
I mean, they (them ladies) might always find it UNCOOL in this so called 'modern society'.

Beautiful, pious, intelligent, fun and humble. Not asking for much hehe.

Though, it's funny how i long for a girlfriend.
When it's one of the things that's forbidden.
And yet when im always aiming for piousness.
Hmmm.

There's always a war going on in me.
I want to submit.
I want to submit.
I want to submit.

...but its hard.

I resign my fate into Allah's hands.
For whatever He decrees, will be decreed.
For no one can change it.
And His paradise is what we seek.
(the poet in me.NYEEHH)

I want that post really badly. REALLY REALLY BADLY!

I miss

2008-11-14T17:09:00.002+08:00

Wake up, pray, bathe, school, eat, class, eat, drama, ngaji, home, bathe, pray, sleep.

Yes that's my daily routine nowadays.

I feel like a robot, machine, programmed in such a way.

I miss the days of hanging out, lazing around.

I miss the days of countless gigs, teh peng (though im not a teh peng fan) ordering extravaganzas.

I miss lepaking at OF or getting wasted on shisha at arab street.

Half a day at Novena food court is not enough!

I miss just hanging out, camwhoring, jokes, laughs and guitar playing.

As you can see, my days are jam packed with school, drama and religious classes.

But i dont blame these.

Alhamdulillah, im finding the modules this semester very interesting and i might actually like what I'm doing.

Drama, well of course i love drama as much or maybedefinitely more than the next guy and it's really not much of a burden (AS SOME PEOPLE WOULD STATE HINT HINT BIG HEAD).

Religious classes, of course, i would so love to double or even triple the amount that im having now if time and Allah permits.

Work, starbucks, has been sacrificed and so far, theres been no regrets.

Though i've found myself to be dangerously low...okay maybe not that drastic...on money.
BUT IVE BEEN SAVING!=D (morocco, liverpool, umrah ramadan or drivers liscence?? hmmm...)

Maybe i've not really been making the effort to call those bunch of loved monkeys to just waste our time away. Maybe at least once a week.
(or maybe at least SOME PERSON would make the same effort after the 1 hour's worth of effort ive made....nyeh [stupid pariah i wasnt merajoking la. i was texting you with my left hand while i was eating]).

We'll see what the future brings us and what Allah's willed for us insyaAllah.

Happenings

2008-11-12T05:36:00.003+08:00

Hmm so enough with the sentimentalness.

Here's whats been going on lately in my life:

Abang Baby Aka Boi vEnOM: Ko ade pasal ngan aku pe joy!?

Nyeahea.

Construction worker look...minus the smell.

I can bet that some of the nerds in NYP do look like this!

HAHAHAHA I LOOK LIKE MY DAD.

RASTAMAN.

THE MOST HORRIBLE PIC OF DIYANA EVAAAHHH!!!

Hmmm well it seems that I might be going through a personality crisis???

Cleaning out my virtual closet

2008-11-09T23:58:00.003+08:00

I got my laptop, back after so long.
So i decided to clean out lots of stuffs.
From redundant school work to photos of the past.
Just to get more space.
That's when i stumbled upon,

the ex's pic. haha

I wonder how you're doing.
All busy going through A levels now.
I totally forgot to wish you all the best.
Though im sure, in sha Allah, that you'd pass well.

We had our fun times i guess.
But whats not meant to be is just not meant to be.
Can't fight fate, though you we're purrrfect.
I hope you're doing well.

The feeling's gone for sure.
But i'll always have a soft spot for you. =)

but that was nothing compared to,

me stumbling upon the Umrah pics.

Yes it's been a month.
But I'm always being reminded of it.
Not by anyone though, by myself.
During prayer, bowing or prostrating.
During reciting the Al-Quran or supplications or Al-fatihah.
I'm always being reminded.

I really really really really really miss that place =(.
InsyAllah i'd get to go there again.
And do as much as possible.

Even with the really really strong heat, dust and dryness.
I've never felt better at any other place.

For the first time will always blind you with awe.
And you're diverted, only for a bit, from what you went there for.
No, not the second time round no.

Oh Allah.
Most Glorious, Most Merciful.
Lord of the Al-Ameen.
Please give me the opportunity to pray at your House.

Happy =)

Someone

2008-11-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

Someone. Or in this case something. heh.

okay.

Someone asked me why was i so...generous today.
Breaking my usual norms of fickle, 'cerewet' and troublesome values and actions.
To make things easier, why do i message in the train.

Oh no no it wasn't World Be Kind To Animals Day no.

It's just that, after certain events,
i've came to realise that you're the one who's always been there.
When im being a bitch, prick, asshole and whatever vulgar adjectives you can think up of.
Even when i hurt you along the way and am too thick to realise it
or when i hurt you along the way and realise it and make it into a joke which makes things worse than before,
you're still always there.

And i've realised that.
I've not always been there for you.
That i've never really played give and take.
Or rather, not really given.

Best friends are just a title.
To me, you're more than that.
=)

though the tetek thing was really uneccessary -____-
(okay ass ive praised you enough this year)

A Levels

2008-11-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

To my friends:

Shehzhadee, Fatmah, Isa, Syarah, Ariff, Izzy, Irah, Suriani, Song Leng and Asnira and WHOEVER THAT I MAY HAVE FORGOTTEN IM SO SORRY KAY XO XO,

All the best for your A Levels kay.
You've gone through so much shit for this.
So please don't screw it up =).

2008-11-01T23:41:00.001+08:00

HALLOWEEN NIGHT WAS OWHZAME!

MORE PIX SOON!

btw, i looked like this =

THEY CALL BE ABANG PONCHO. HAHA

Wooooh the emo has landed

2008-10-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

It's even worse than square one.
Just as how i predicted.
lalala.

It's always the same words, phrases and sentences.
Time and again, time after time.
I CALL FOR A SCRIPT RE-WRITE!
Anyone? Anyone?
It's even worse than a bloody broken record.
Cos, not only is it boring, it's heart breaking.
Tralalala.

I have this friend of mine.
Pig.
I would like you to know.
That you're the only un-halal thing in this world that i can't live without.
Dissect my words, you know me best.

And for you, yes you, i hope you get some good rest.

...

2008-10-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

Oh Book of God Almighty.
Oh one who's The Light and The Pious and The Straight.

I miss reading you.
I miss you, oh so much.

The sounds of your words, phrases, sentences.
The sound of your voice, your laughter, you.

The flow, the swift abruptness, the pauses.
Your eyes, your personality, you.

As it all comes together.
Oh i wish we could be together.

Oh if only i could understand.
Oh if only you would understand.

It would mean so much if i did.
It would mean so much if you did.

But i do know it's possible.
Though right now, it seems so impossible.

Time, these things take time.
I guess it would take a really really really long time.

But, if God wills.
Oh, if God wills.

And God is the best of poets.
And God has written all our fates.

Oh Book, I do miss reading you.
Oh The Light, The Pious Lady, I do miss you oh so much.

And only, I know.
If only you knew...

I saw what you wrote.
Yes you are right.
You are so so right.
Spot on, bulls eye, right on target.
I'm sorry. It's my fault.
Though, could you blame someone for falling,
for someone who's so beautiful, so humble and so pious.
I shouldn't have acted the way i did.
Well does this mean that it ends?
Because it so hard to see, reconciliation.
In our current, situation.
If only you didn't love him as much.
No, no, of me, that was so selfish.

This has been a horrible day =(.

Whats with all the emo?

2008-10-27T12:16:00.002+08:00

Aiya whats with all the emo for the past 2 days huh?
Maybe thats what being single for a long time does to you.
Oh well.
I'll go with the flow then.

After logging into friendster (i know, friendster got gay but its the most userfriendly thing nowdays), i came to realise that ive not been paying much attention to my close friends.
Lamer, Sotonghead, Bila-larut malam, soupfeet, jesus, jem, Postduex, homeclub girls and everyone else (sorry if ive forgotten you).

I REALLY MISS ALL OF YOU YOU KNOW.
SCHOOL & DRAMA has really taken up so much of my time =(.
I miss just hanging out at starbucks (though now no more free drinks and discounts).
I miss watching bands play at scape or homeclub or anywhere else.
I miss shishaing and eating shawarma and laughing at how horny the guy from mosi cafe can be.
I miss flicking lamer's arm and watch her squeal cos she think she's fat but she's not.
I miss telling sotong that she's and idiot to think she's fat cos she's so skinny.
I miss bk and shah alam trips and drinking teh tarik (sorry im not teh peng fan).

I miss the bimboness of the homeclub girls (esp erny).
But i really miss the company of my closest outside friends.
Its my fault for not MAKING TIME to hang out with all of youus.
I PROMISE TO BE FREE-ER OKAY!!!
=D

I feel sick

2008-10-26T02:07:00.002+08:00

I feel sick to my stomach whenever i read about your...
Not much about you feeling...
More of about me being...

I am torn between feeling as if im a friend or a longing, see.
Cos i really do enjoy your company.
but eventually,
i do ask myself time and again,
what are we?

I don't wanna say it out.
Loud.
For fear for the worst.
For the worst does bring fear.
For the worst does bring disappoinment and despair.
But how am i able to keep this fair?
If things would not be laid bare?

If you're curious please do ask.
Maybe we can come to a consensus.
And let this pass?
And maybe i can help you forget the past.
Am i going too fast?

Best case scenario, that would be.
May be better for you, even better for me.
Decisions really up to you see.
And i still do feel very lonely....=(

On a brighter note, I just reached home from JARANRARA with MAKEUP/ALUMNIS PEEPS.
Oh how i miss all of them kecorables.
Just returned from the RELEASE OF THE CENTURY HAHA.
Seriously, aneroxic, bullimic sufferes who are seeking a cure should drop all that psychological
bullcrap and just join any willing Malay family/group during hari raya. HAHA.
So much talking cocking, gossiping, eating, drinking, sleeping, relaxing (not much green packeting though).
It was great and im real glad cos its the only 'friends' raya outing that i have this year.
Or rather, the only ACTUAL raya outing that ive had this year haha.
Pics will be uploaded as soon (or late) as i get them pics okay =).

And last night, i experienced an experience that i would never want to experience ever again...O_O. no joke.

Cherry, Three Bulan & Me

2008-10-24T23:51:00.007+08:00

A pretty much assumed to be boring day turned out to be rather fun.

but first i haveta apologise to VERLYNN (insert chinese name here) FOR MISSING YOUR PARTY!! =( hope all who attended had fun huh. and your JUJU was a real gentleman for ferrying you around.

Met up with (first two nicknames must be kept secret) / / QUEENIRITATING/GIRL WHO KEPT COMPLAINING THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE OUT PFFT.

Okay la it was my fault for being late.
And my fault for missing the bus.
And my fault for insisting that we walked the long way to the RC.
AND MY FAULT FOR WHOPPING YOUR SAD SORRY ASS IN POOL =DD.

Still still it was super great fun (and super great GOODSTRESS) to have gone out with you again.
And i promise you a dinner since i couldnt breakfast with you okay =).

After that i met up straight with SURE-YEAH/GREEN RECYCLING FROG/THREE BULAN
who is so not totally fat and IMO have gotten so much cuter LOLOLOLOL. (CHEEK PINCHING TIME). Ate kebab at simpang bedok and walked thru hseng hsiong as though we're a newly wed couple shopping for household items.

Best qoute:
S: You, you, you nak i belikan tu (pointing at pork section). Dulu I pena rase, sedap tau.
Me: Boleh tapi lepas kite buat anak kay you.
S: DISGUST FACE LOLOL.
HAHAHA we were like a couple of retards la in that poor place haha.

I guess we're both somewhat in the same situation aka lacking in the opposite other's love if you get what i mean.

Okay so tmr is zee runthrough and jaranrara. =)

Muka confident LOL

Trying to be as straight as the pool cue (stick)

MUKA TEMPEK KANCIONG SPIDER WHEN LOSING LOL

Thats Three Bulan for you.

Fry wavin, fun chillin.

HAHA BURGER FACE!

Okay do stare at this picture for a few seconds.

Now compare it to this. HAHA SAME RIGHT!

Erm nope not good.

A lil better

Sadly, the best couple pic LOL.

CHOOOOO KYUUUTEEEEE

Three Bulan's Three Bulan face. HAHA

Fun fun fun!

1537461461576

2008-10-23T09:48:00.004+08:00

1537461461576
The only way to understand...

Why do i always give myself unrealistic hope?
Never seemed to make do with what is presented to me.
Yes maybe I am fickle I guess.
But maybe, because of this, I'd always end up the loser?
Funny how people fall for others, but when things go bad,
they'd be saying that it's for the final time.
The risk taking and all that jazz.
What about the ones who are much more privillaged?
Will it always be like that?
Are we really kidding ourselves?
Why is it so hard?
I feel as ive im always to disappointment.
So maybe it's time to get a life.

I feel lonely...

2008-10-22T06:43:00.015+08:00

So many have complained that i've neither posted nor printed umrah pics.
Reasons behind not posting, i haven't really got the time and posting pictures is a real painstaking process to do on blogger. (im not much of a flickr or what shit posting website kinda person. flckr...fckr. HAHA.)

AND YES I SO SHOULD CONCENTRATE IN CLASS BUT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT INFOCOMM SECURITY. i mean....HOW FUN IS INFOCOMM SECURITY. SO FUN RIGHT. HELLZ YEAH BITCHEZ!

So i've decided that id makes posts of different sets of pictures.
FIRST! NUMERO UNO. NOMBOR SATU. WAHID!
would be THEM LULZ WORTHY pics.

Next edition would be the best ones okay =).

(im so gonna get it cos of this. haha)

Skeleton like!

MUKA STEP CUTE.

Thinking monkey HAHA

Noseway to heaven. HAHA

Muka tempek. HAHA

Super ngorokz.

HAHHA WHATTAF CONSTIPATED FACE!

Abang body HAHA!

BOTTOM RIGHT LOLZ

ehehehe cheeky boy.

Rauf : Like...whateverr

Hmm i guess someone's gotto go take their wuduk again.

Are you thinking what im thinking B1?
I think i am B2.
=)

Chin no evil.

ERM. NO IDEA....

Awww shucks.

Lepak benar nampak.

HAHAHHAHA CIK NUR LAPAR PE JOY!?

HAHAHA HISYAM LAPAR PE JOY.

Okay okay im sorry for making fun of you. Don't you start sulking now.

Hmm jangan masuk campur haaa.

SNORLAX.

LOOK AT RAUF (the guy). HAHAHA

EXTREME LEFT LOL WHATTAF.

HMM WHAT WILL I BUY WHEN I GET BACK??? (inside joke)

Guy on the left LOL

HAHA SLUMBER(not selambe okay i know) FACE

HAHAHAHHAHA CLASSIC

BUAHAHAHHA SHITTTT

OMG OMG HAAAAAAAAHAHAHA

Lol typical of Abg June.

OMG SALEHA! YOUR BEST EVER SHOT =DDD

She looks like ultraman's head. HEHEH

Moley moley moley

Holy stress!

hehehe chekky

OI SLEEPING WHEN KHUTBAH

THIS PIC IS NOT FUNNY BUT HE'S SO CUTE OMGAHHHH I LOVE CHILDREN! (in a totally non-paedophilic way mind you sick bastards)

MUKA TEMPEK THE SEQUEL

Sneaky boy

HAHAHAAA

Hmm so now we know who stole the cookies from the cookie jar..

LAPAR PE JOY!?? HAHA

lulz

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Hmm so i went out with so and so and so and so and so. haha.
Could be said that it was our 2nd proper outing. Filled with laughs, frowns, sighs, sulking and a whole lot of GOOD STRESS.
Went to watch Big Stan. She being a tudunger, was obviously not her idea to watch that type of movie.
And i've never seen someone who initially forgot that she was 18 and then got so excited after that that she was going to watch an M-18 movie and started talking about buying her own ciggs and going to a porn shop (not that she smokes and the porn shop reference was for me -____-).
Still, Big Stan was more or less porn for her and nothing for me. HAHA.
I really really enjoyed the outing though. Can't really remember a better outing with someone i just knew. And there wasn't any acting or being a different person as both of us has seen each other's worse during our pilgrimmage to Mecca. So it an all natural, organic and exciting outing.

Wouldn't really bore you with the details of it. And im not one to express my sincerest feelings about some trip or something through here as it's only for the people concerend. but just enjoy the pictures =).

And yes. I think she's the only girl that i know that would run from lido to masjid alfalah(to pray) and back in less than 15 mins just to catch a 710pm movie and not complain =). ( though you complained about ten thousand other things -____-. HEHE KIDDIN)

And yes the outing was as refreshing as her tudung. LOL

Wild Strawberry HAHA
Cherry and the chappatti factory?

saleh-HAHAHAHAHAHA

Waffle face.

David Beleteh. Waffle Magic.

Notice how our waffles kinda reflect what we're wearing? HAHA

Kinda suck at the camwhore part (i know im not natural -____-)

ULTIMATE CAMERA EFFECT!!!! UP YOURS PHOTOBUGGAS.

HAHA CIK JUN LOOKALIKE

Youre so gonna kill me for posting this O_O.

fun fun fun =).

I miss...

2008-10-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

I showed my aunty some of the umrah pics the other day.
But ended up looking through them over and over again.
I really really really miss that place you know.

It's a feeling you can never describe.
That sense of peace and tranquility.

Though you're being surrounded by noisy, sweaty pilgrims.
It's as if you're sitting in a train during the rush hour.
But you've got those noise cancelling earphones plugged in.
With a melodious, smooth and calming postrock song playing.

It is like, all the problems and worries in life are taken away.
And its ibadah, ibadah, ibadah.
The mosque is your 2nd home.

Now i know why everyone strives to always return there again.
Cos it's never ever enough.

Hmm when things are going well.
Emerged from nowhere.
Now im back into a state of dilemma.
Aiyo why so fickle.

Yes. No. For the final time.

2008-10-18T19:57:00.002+08:00

Sad that it has come to an end.
Really, im starting to feel the effects.
After exercising my final rights.

Might be going there to return the stuffs.
Will really really miss working.

And i'm still super pissed off for being attached.
On my final fucking day.
Yes i did send it in late.
But its my final day asshole.
Ive worked at the place longer than you.
Three cheers for bloody loyalty and camaraderie.
You're never a pirate in my eyes.

Still, i managed to find great fun during my last shift at paragon.
Funny, only 2 out of the 5 people i was working with were from there.
Slam Slam Slam. The good stuffs.
I did everything smoothly and am so proud of myself haha.
Great fun great fun.
But good things must always come to an end i guess.
Eventually, i just can't cope.

Swipe.
Are you clocking out?
Yes.
Are you taking a break?
No.

For the final time i guess...
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Hmm so, what?
The Free Compliment Agreement has been (silently) agreed?
Whats next?
The Declaration of UNIndependence?
Wait stop.
Hold your horses my fellow politicians.
It's still too early to discuss merger.
And one's still reeling from the effects of the causeway separation.
Not that they're going all LKY or anything.
Still, we're not really CHINA and INDIA, no?
More like Sarawak and Malaysia?
We're all hoping without debate =).

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Funny, its the ones that's closest to me that laughed at me and said that i'd look stupid.
It's harder than i thought.
Oh Allah, please open up their hearts.

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I can balance the tip of my laptop against the tip of my stomach.
Does this mean im fat?

Dear Friend

2008-10-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

Dear me,

it's a secret that is supposed to be kept.
not something to say out loud and advertise.
you're doing it for Him and not anyone else.
so please, watch your words and actions.

yes it feels good, rejuvinating.
but honestly, it has been said.
that we might be the ones they hate.
and to be look suspiciously upon.

so stick with the ones you know.
for they would not bring you sorrow.
nor suspicious watchful eyes.

Dear friend,

I appreciate your concern.
Seeing what some are doing, aren't what you're doing.
But we've always got to ask ourselves,
isn't what we're doing...right?

You said you're worried about me.
I said it's okay. Im confident of what i believe in.
Though im not good with words, verbally.

If you're really so keen and curious.
Do follow us, try, for once.
It might be your guiding light.

God is Great
and He chooses whom to elevate.

Dear another friend,

Syukur Alhamdulillah.
That i've met you.
And got to know you.
In the most uncommon circumstances.

You encourage me to be more...
You inspire me to be more...
I feel comfortable talking to you about...
THOUGH ITS REALLY STRESSFUL LA MOST OF THE TIME HUH.

The whole situation is funny.
Cos ive never expected to be 'close' with someone like you.
Yes maybe that is part of my ego shits i guess.

I was told that you wanna find, you wont find.
But when you don't find, it gets to you.
Right smack in your face.

All i can say is,
ouch.
=)

It's always about what i want.

2008-10-11T14:38:00.002+08:00

Dear GG.

I had a dream about you last night.

You were driving your own yacht.
A smile on your face.
Eyes with deep deep determination.
Your hair flowing, being blown by the wind.

Then you were rowing a boat (if im not wrong).
And i was playing catch up.
Had to fight with some jocks on the jetty.

Yes i do have weird dreams.

Then we talked.
Just like the way we always chatted.

I like.
Then i woke up -____-.

Thus explains the problem with me and WANT and CAN GET.
Why do you always pick out the bad points?
Why do you always think you could, but end up empty and alone eventually.
It is not as if the other apple is wrotten.
It's just that i don't understand its flavour (or choose not to understand it) even though i know it.
And thats discrimination in a small scale.
Let's adopt a watch and wait approach.
Yes. Good idea.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Went to THEWORKPLACE.
To submit THE RESIGNATION.
Unfortunately for me, THE FUN PEOPLE, were there.
Makes me dread QUITTING even more.

Aiyo. If it's not for the busy schedules, lousy results and considerably low pay, i wouldn't have made this decision.
I love working there yes.
But at the end of the day, it's just a part time job.
Next week's the last week.
Make full use of it my friend.

~~~~~~~~~~~~
Suck-In-Ah.

I apologise for being too direct.
But did it surprise you.
Like i said, i will never understand your decision.
Maybe only you would.

You said you wish you can turn back time.
But maybe now its a bit too late.
You could do that yes.
But it would only jeapordize the recent situation.

But i still am sorry for being too direct.
On the bright side,
we're all still young and naive =).

ATC WAS OUHZAIME!!!

Is it just lust, desperation or sincere feelings?

2008-10-10T07:12:00.002+08:00

Funny how isit that one would envisage a very opinion-sided language problem between two people of the same race?

Or is it that one just holds one higher than the other?
Now isn't that arrogance?

Aiyah you think too much lah.

Still this, is very confusing.
Totally unexpected.
And i daresay, troublesome.
The timing, i mean.

Funny how I'm typing this while being super pissed off after being shown the middle finger from my brother.

And to have no power to do anything about it.

Yes i understand his...situation.

But still its a bloody finger.
Still warrants a tight slap in my books, back-from-umrah or not.
Argh. Kids nowdays. So pampered.

Gone were the days of brushing chilli in your mouth for saying 'shit'.

Good luck to Him in NS.

Well back to initial.

But whatever case may be.
Whatever difference that i can think up over a lifetime about,

Yesterday was still and will always be...pleasantly great.
Really hope that it can be done more often.
Pieces are at your side of the board by friend.
It's your call...

Back to reality

2008-10-09T01:43:00.002+08:00

Wake up Ilham.
Back to reality.

Madina's down.
Reason for not uploading Umrah pics.
Madina's my laptop btw.
Don't ask me why i named it.
Im a weirdo no?

Updates in my life if you're really keen to know. (if not then your pasal lor)

Really really really really really miss Mecca and Madinah.

I WENT SHOPPING AND I FEEL HAPPY!

Really miss certain people (excluding closefriends cos its obligatory to miss you guys)

WILL WAIT TILL AFTER THE DEADLINE. IF CANNOT THEN CANNOT.

School's starting next week. Hmmm. IT student without laptop. HMMMMMMMM im so dead.

I'm quitting my job at starbucks. Why?

To KahnSehnTrait on my Stahdees. Yeap precisely. And its also cos i don't have that drive to work anymore. Like...pay doesn't really do justice to the shitload of work we do (ive said this 3 times already. And shitload of work is still shitload of fun work but yeah).

Other than all these...ATC THIS FRIDAY YAY MEET UP WITH THE PEEPS YAY.
DRAMA ALSO FRIDAY YAY I MISS DRAMA.

HELLO PERSON. YOU'RE MISSED EVENTHOUGH YOU MAY NOT REALLY GIVE A DAMN BUT HECK IT I MISS YOU LA I DON'T CARE.

Maybe im just sleepy..hmmmm....

God is the Greatest.

2008-10-05T00:52:00.002+08:00

Masjidil Haram

The approach.
Step by step.
Heart, beating, in deep drumming rhythm.
In sync with feeling.

And at first sight, it does not really blow the mind away,
just yet.

Oh Allah.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity.
Thank you for inviting me.
To be a guest.
To circumambulate,
To pray, to bow, to lay prostate.
At your house.
In your Haram.

There is that deep sense of closeness.
Between you and Him.
A certain calm feeling.
A certain extraordinary feeling.

Still i do regret.
Not doing my strength's worth.
To have surrendered,
to the slightest hint of tire.

I miss it. Dearly.
Each time i lay prostate in prayer.
On the sajadah, back on home soil.
I long to be doing that.
On the cold white marble.
In Earth's most holiest domain.

The first mount on that barren land (insyallah)
The house built by Abraham.
Where if we kiss the stone,
it is as if we're kissing your hand.

Ka'bah

Do give me the opportunity to return once again.
So i could do what i didn't.
And improve on what ive did.
Please do always keep me under your guidance.
Only by your will.

I surrender to you and you alone.

Masjid Nabawi

Chasing lailatul kadar

2008-09-20T14:23:00.001+08:00

It is time.
To humble yourself down.

See you in two weeks.

Family & the trip.

2008-09-15T11:10:00.004+08:00

Had a kenduri at home yesterday.
The whole gang came down.

Honestly, I've never really expected this.
I've always thought the trip was something silent, secret, between me and HIM.
Never really expected the attention, the significance, the..yeah.
It's really a surprise & shock to me to see all this.

Maybe i've not understood it fully.
How big an occasion it is.
Though what i'd be doing is considered the smaller part.
But still.

But still, its great to see that religion still plays a big role in my family.
Religion is still something that holds our bond.
Maybe its the mix, intertwining aspects of our traditional values and religion that what we consider family is family.

I'm glad I'm Asian.
I'm glad I'm Muslim.

Seeing all these westernisationing of my country makes me ask myself this question.
Why do people over here want so much to be people over there?
IMO, we have better family values, respect, ties and humility.
Not being prejudice though.

And to hold strong in Islam.
Makes me feel that i'm out of the norm,
sets me apart from the rest,
takes me out of the majority,
and places me in God's company.
Insyallah.

Which i would seriously like btw.

But it all brings me back to this.
This...trip.
That started out as a random 'hey can i join?'
That leads to classes, sessions which opened up my mind,
opened up my heart,
clarified doubts and wrong practices.
Brings about guiding light to the already lighted path which was crooked to me before.
And it all leads to this.

To see, everyone, together again.
Just like old times.
Before all these...conflicts.
Just like old times.
The oldies sitting there laughing, chatting, having their coffee in the living room.
My generation, all held up in the bed room, teasing each other.
The young ones running about like wild monkeys with toys in their hands.
Just like old times.

I kept quiet when all of you asked me to say something.
Yes I am very shy in these situations.
But the reason behind my silence is that my words would mean nothing.
Over here though.

But trust me, my family.
The words that i will utter over there.
It will be for you, mostly.
And those words are the ones that will really matter.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.
For everything that has happened.
And will happen.
For it is all in HIS greater plan.

FUN

2008-09-11T00:26:00.008+08:00

Tralalalala.

I'm so gonna regret staying up this late over sahur later on.

And i haven't even bathed and solated yet.

Sheesh.

Okay okay events this week.

GOT DD-20! J&K OVERDRIVE FIXED! GUITAR SET UP!

Zomg im so on the road to getting my full set done (though its only like 30% done???)

Had a basic food & hygiene course just now. Was okay la. Had its fun parts, had its boring sleepy dry parts. But all in all, i was paid to go and it was from 8-6 so im not complaining (gaji bom!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FADLUL!
Baru mau jejak 18 pe? Gue da naik mendak ah siolll.
HAHA.
GONNA HAVE FUN TMR AND I HOPE YOU LIKE THE PRESENT I BOUGHT YOU!
Okay cheebye i sound gay and its as if he's my boyfriend sia eewww...
(mariah curry if you're reading this don't laugh).

2 late night out events that happened lately!

ROCKSTARCREW'S FIRST GEHG ORG BYE HEIDER!

Nyehh cock face cock face

Doing some clubbing martial arts move lol

The light reflected from my teeth were too much for izzy to handle lol.

THE FART-EQA'S BIRTHDAY DINNER AT FISH&CO WITH FAMILLIA!

ALALALA DING DING NYER NYER NYER. FREAKING HEART MELTER SHIZ THIS ONE!

Mak: Indian/Malay. Bapak: Melayu lepak. Anak muke cine. apee jee.

The lady at the front is adorable.
The one at the back is just plain disgusting. HUEHEHEHE

Yes its her birthday thus the pic. Thats Fart-Eqa

Fatboy. The brother.

Fat dad. The Dad.

The whole jinggang.

EH ALAMAK AKU BACKGROUND LEPAK SHOT SIOLZ.
And my dad doing his common thang.

Marmee and Kark Eeeelaaaaaa

Tudung mom. The mom.
Fart. The cuz.
Fat Dad. Still doing his thang.

Fat girl. The sister.

EH BRO MUKE MAINTAIN AH PENAT KE DARI KEJE HAHA JANGAN STONE AH DOK.

ALALALA YANG CENTER ONE IS CUTE.
YANG LAIN SEMUE MUKE MONYET!

HEART MELTAH!

The Ibrahims.

The Othmans (except the mat kpo at the left.)
I look manje but im not okay. I was tired and my mom's squishy cushion like arm was the shit.

NOW WTF IS WRONG WITCHOO?

ALAMAK UNGLAM LA.
Oh thats Kark Yarn right there.

EEEE VAIN CAMWHORE LOL.

SEDARE MARERS.

Kau curi hati ku...kau curi hati ku.

Stressed out from this cruel world.

Hot guy!

Japan hour.

Shit i'm the one who's 18 and she gets to drive.

She makes Hamilton shit in his pants and eat it.

I'm the F1 BABY MAFAKAS!

CUUUTTEEEE!
MIMAR WE MISS YOU!

AKU ADE FEELING DOK

2008-09-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

EH CHOPE CHOPE AKU ADE FEELING ADE FEELING MAU KENE TULIS.

~~~~~~~~~~

Pristine, immaculate, dressed in a flawless white robe. Looking oh so ever pure and clean, as always.

He sets off. Fresh from religious studies. Refreshed, his mind is.

As he walk, sandals scraping the dirt path that leads back to his home, he looks up and gazes into the stars.

Things have been going perfect, he proclaimed in his heart. A life filled with neither countless material possessions nor luxury items but steeped in satisfaction and stability.

"God's way is the only way", he said to himself, smiling. "I don't think anything would happen to jeopardize this life of mine." he added, with a slight chuckle.

How wrong could he be.

~~~~~~~~~~

OKAY TO BE CONTINUED. DA TAK SHIOK STEAM LAGI SORRY DOK.

haha whattaf.

DD-20

2008-09-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

GOT MY LONG AWAITED DD-20! YAAAAAAAAAYYY!!!

Its the holidays but it doesn't really feel like it though.

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

This that i really miss:

Hanging out, shisha-ing and just wasting the night away with friends...

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

The pig

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

Lance

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

Great big noisy family gatherings

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

3bulaning with suerya

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

theres somemore but i forgot.

but what ever it is...

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

=DD

It's late at night

2008-09-07T01:04:00.003+08:00

It's 1am now and the internet's gone all whack.
Just like it always does at this time.
Oh people why can't you go to sleep early?
So that i could youtube my way into the deep darkness of the night?

Saturday. Hmm.
Another weekly dose of religious knowledge.
Still, i'm left wanting for more.
I really can't wait for umrah.
Though i feel ready and unprepared at the same time.

I don't know what challenges, hurdles or tests that will be put forth.
For only there will there be a lot of those coming at you.
To test your resolve, your strength, your remembrance of the Almighty.
And no, he is not a black man dressed in white, speaking english, telling you to build an arc.
Certainly not your run of the mill hollywood kafir imagination.

This is the real deal.

I feel so new, so pristine to this...thing.
To its ways, views on others and its teachings.
Differ it does from what i've been taught since young.
Sometimes i feel lost, afraid, asking myself what have i gotten into?

But week in week out, familiar faces become even more familiar.
Awkwardness turns to comfort.
Absorbing, nodding turns to questioning, asking.
And there's even a tinge of feeling.
Though after research, its impossible.

I've not really put this Ramadan to full, good use.
Jamming nights, homeclub.
Is that what you're supposed to do during this holy month?
It isnt as if it comes all the time.

Still, it's only the first week.
Hopefully the next 2 will be put to good use.
and the last will justify a year's worth of mangkuling and learning.

I view my brother as a sad disgrace and example to the common Malay teens of Singapore.
Fat, lazy and annoying.
And it makes me sick.
Wake up and stop being a burden please.

Filet-no-Fish.

God is Great

2008-09-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hmm yes and so the EXAMS ARE OVAH.
Really feels good to not have that load of school stress on your back anymore.
No more late night mugging.
No more worrying about unfinished projects.
No more finishing unfinished projects which were due three weeks earlier.
HAH!
Though i do miss math...weirdo.

Ramadan is here. Yes yes the fasting month yes fast fast fast.
Or is it?
It's more than that you know.
It's more than just abstaining from food and drink (and ciggs for you smokers) from dawn till dusk.
It's abstaining from everything that taints your soul.
I really find it funny why some people fast and yet they dont pray.
Or some people drink but yet they fast.
I mean why waste your time huh?
Or the minute the sun sets, they get back to their dirty deeds.
It's called a holy month for a reason.

Well maybe i may never know what goes on in their heads.
Maybe im the same, or rather, worse off.
Who knows.
But then, you can always try.

In my opinion.
Theres no other feeling,
nor any other emotion,
that you can feel
other than in prayer.

I bet if i were to say this outside, i'd be called kental (geek...religious geek in this sense)
But the sad part is, it would be the 'muslims' saying this.
Get me?

Religion gives me identity, makes me different.
Yet, it gives me company and solace at the same time.
Well that's my opinion.

This world is just a test.
And i intend to pass it, with flying colours, insyallah.

And the reason to why i left early the other day?
Hmm...its Ramadan...so...baybeats or the mosque?
You make your choice.
For i've already made mine.

Im still alive

2008-08-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

IM STILL ALIVE OKAY PEOPLE!

Its the study period now and i've been (not really) cramping a whole lot of crap shit in my head.

Funny, ive been working quite alot for these past few weeks, and i'm starting to really really enjoy work.

I don't understand the furore or overreaction to the jade seah fiasco. Okay maybe she uttered fuck but don't we all? And it isn't her fault really because the mike was supposed to be switched off.
Okay whatever.

let see lets see. Studying has totally drained the blogging side of be so ill be back after my exams yo.

For now, let Mimar entertain you =)

=DD

AAAH OMG I FIND THAT CUTE AAH OMG WHAT THE HELLS HAPPENING

2008-08-17T00:04:00.002+08:00

aaahhhhthisisstupidaahhhwhatthehell.

Wow ive been single for a year yesterday yesterday (its 12.05 am now) and tralalalaaaaa...~~~

And i think im finally over my ex and like tralalalaaa i guess she's over me too.

and we're on separate paths and tralalalaaaa.

why the reaction and tralalalaa...

aaahhhomgifindthatcuteaah

stupidstupidstupidstupidolderdrinkerolderdrinkernotgoodinreligionolderdrinker.

yay EPL starts today yayyyyy!!!

aaahhthisisstupidsiacheebyeee!!!

SUERYA! ONLY YOU KNOW WHY LOLOL.

cchhheeebbbyyeeellaaaa....

Its never too late to continue your studies.

2008-08-14T20:21:00.002+08:00

Someone asked me where I am studying at this morning.
Was asked about my age then.
After replying, that someone said he envied me.
Envied that I'm still so young, envied that I'm still in school, still having education, still with a chance of a bright future.

What i saw was, sincere sadness.

It's true, what he said, i guess.

I wouldn't wanna be stuck being thirty, without solid papers, doing the same thing again and again
for three years with real stagnant, pathetic pay.

It's a wake up call ham, in the most inconspicuous kind of means.

~~~

I think I like you, but you're haram through and through.

Hmm, great idea for a song/story. =)

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE!

2008-08-13T01:07:00.012+08:00

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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WAS AWESOME SHIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
WORTH EVERY CENT!
MADE MY YEAR!
BEST GIG IVE EVER BEEN TO!!! OH MAH GAAHHH!!!

Me and Dee at OF before going to esplanade. Stupid pimple.

HELLZ YEAH BITCHEZZ

Ben's Pedal Set-Up

Chris' Pedal Setup.

SET LIST!!!

WHOA. I think its an ibanez while jem said it was a gibson.
Chris' guitar btw.

US SOUND TECHIES RULE YO.

The view from our seats. Honestly, it was worth the money because its nearer than it looks.
and we didnt have to stand due people who stood up. heh.

AWESOME.

The set list + minor adjustments.
Cheyenne = the neatest handwriting ever on a set list.

Cool videographer dude who managed to get the setlist!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH ARE YOU JEALOUS BITCHEZ!!???

NICK!!! Nicest person in the band i must say!

I cant tell whos this is

This one either

CHRIS WALLA-U. haha

CHRIS!!!

WHOOOA

ARE YOU JEALOUS NOW HAHAHHAA

He looks like he wants to hit nick's head. lolol

DEATH CABBERS!

At makan sutra...makaning

=DD

Jem you asshole.

IT REALLY REALLY PAYS TO COME EARLY!!!

Erm okay another group shot!

We were talking about backward boobs before this.

Errr erm yeah okay.

MORE OF BEN!

Awesome!!!!

GREATEST NIGHT OF THE YEAR BY FAR!

Long weekend

2008-08-11T21:30:00.004+08:00

This has been a really long weekend.

Long weekends aren't good.

Does anyone want to go and watch Own Time Own Target???

2008-08-11T00:40:00.004+08:00

I read an article in the Sunday Times today regarding the position of Malays in Singaporean society.

And that article really hits the spot.

Here I am, Mr your run of the mill Malay guy of Javanese decent.
Funny, I'd always like to point out that I'm of more Javanese while I can't even speak the language.

Sometimes, i ask myself, why do I view Malay, my own race, on a low level?
(Yes, i am not particularly strong in my own mother tongue)

Is it because of the society's general view upon my race?
Is it because of the countless hooligans and hoodlums that we always see, loitering about, making a nuisance?
Is it because of the rising number of premarital pregnancies in the Malay community?

Maybe, just maybe.

All of us, Malays included, seem to have this mentality that theres an inherited lazy gene in every Malay boy and girl of this generation.

But why?

Why is it always viewed upon that the other races, especially the Chinese, are always hardworkers?

I can keep asking these questions all night, but trust me, it won't be solved in the morning.

We all try to think positive, to be optimistic.
We all try to show that us Malays can do a job as good or even better than our counterparts.
But sometimes, events on the other side of the causeway, aren't helping at all.

Malaysia, country with a Malay majority, governed by Malays.
And what are they doing?
Squabbling. Politics.
Accusations? Sodomy? All of you are Muslims for god's sake.
So much furore over people wanting to convert out of Islam.
But the ones who are SUPPOSED to be Muslim, are accusing each other of sodomy.
Wake up guys, you are becoming the laughing stock of the world.
Sad, real sad.

But who am i to say all these.
I'm not doing myself justice.
I should be studying. Hah.
Well, maybe this issue would provide even more self motivation for me to study.
To study and to 'bring up my own race'...one step at a time.
Yes ham, one step at a time.

Yes, im you're average Malay dude.

Worked during National day yesterday.
Dee, Sufiana and Kenneth were kind enough to drop by for a visit.
And yes, to watch the fireworks of course.
Snapped a few pics when me and fad were having our break. =)

It was only 7+ and we were TIRED!

First time that i wore a shirt for work.

AIMAN. Lol crazy fella this one.
I LOOK LIKE MASK RAIDER IN THOSE SHADES HAHA.

Gosh im so gonna miss my hair.

This always happens.

2008-08-10T12:50:00.002+08:00

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Why?

And Starbucks customers are freaking monsters.
Well, some of them really.
But yesterday was one hell of a ride.

SLEEPPY

2008-08-09T00:41:00.007+08:00

Today was, quite, random, in some ways.

Woke up for subuh with the intention to study after praying.
But fell asleep on the couch till nine, so had to rather chop chop get ready for school
as i had a test at 11.

Reached there 2 minutes before the paper.

Lecturer: Boy, quickly, its going to be 11.
Me: Eh cher, chillax ah, still got 2 mins what. No worries.

After that i proceeded to take my time stuffing my hoody into my already fullypacked bag
and strolled to the seat.

Rockstar benar. HAHA.

Halfway through the paper ( it was a 1 and a half hour paper, though i finished it in 1/2 an hour), my stomach grumbled like REAL LOUD till the people surrounding me turned to face me.

Me: heheh, didnt eat breakfast la. =D

After the paper, i went straight to Masjid Sultan at arab street for friday prayers. Love that mosque, its so huge and spacious.

Did i mention that i wore clothes that i usually wear to sleep? haha thats how lepak today was.

After that, met Suck-In-Ah at zam zam. Had my long awaited murtabak ayam, and we proceeded to find sakinah's zombie keychains. That girl goes retarded over these things man.
And yeah i was 'zombiefied' by her via a red zombie.
When she was picking out them zombies, i noticed that her pose was exactly like a makcik at the wet market, picking through potatoes. HAHA.

Voila. The 21st century auntie.

So after that, she accompanied me to shop at bugis street.
My first time! and how great it was.
Bought 2 berms =DD.

Had work from 4-10, not such a bad shift. Tmr will be even better i suppose.

After work, LEPAKED with Nab, Dee, Hafiz abg arab, Muhammad Wei Xiang, Kenneth Abg Tattoo, Hafiz (2nd BATCH!!). Hah.

Makes me realize that with wonderful people like these around me, i should be more grateful.
I mean, which lady friend would you say this to "erm, can you please move that side abit, i can feel your boob." HAHAHA.
And which other friend can you explain all your drama playwright aspirations to with such gusto and thrill.
And which friend can you keep bullying before, during and after work but you know that he'd always be by your side.
And which friend would go crazy after realising that WE'RE OF THE 2ND BATCH!!?? hahaha.

Yes, should be grateful, definitely =).

Though some small things would certainly be the cherry on top of the whole evening.
Too bad swensens ran out of cherries.
Oh well.

Closing during ndp tmr. Good luck to you Ilham.

Eh. ive just realised...this is my first i did this i did that post. Shit im turning typical.

I look like some song producer from Malaysia.

Kacau la si abg tattoo tu.

You wantz...french boobiez???

Stuffed with Starbucks. AND THANKS FOR FINISHING MY MUFFIN!! haha.

Fadlul's the kental one, always.

Bottoms up bitchez!

Omg i so have big buns and thighs.

Bang bros. WORLD FAMOUS. HAHAHAHAHHA

We fail at camwhore

Thats my drink bitch.

Fadlul why must you always look stupid???

LOL NABILA!. And i look like a freaking horny crossbreed between a chipmunk and a gerbil.
And fadlul finally looks normal.

NOW HIS BIG HEAD IS BLOCKING MY WAY.

Nabila looks innocent but in actual fact, she was squeezing my balls, thus the reaction.

Alalaaa kesian fadlul, had to go work somemore =P.

weeeee...=D

HAPPY BAATCHDAY SHEILA

2008-08-07T23:08:00.007+08:00

Happy Baatchday to SHEILA MASJID(not her real 2nd name i think).

So we super sabo-ed Sheila today; pretending that Julyha got into an accident while
going out to get her present.

Being the drama-mama people that we are, we pulled it off yo!

Classic line/s of the day:

Omg Sheila I'm so sorry! I shouldve went instead of Julyha and nothing wouldve happened...omg im so sorry...shit la...

and

SHEILA YOU'VE GOT PUNKED!

haha.

Freaking gullible person you. haha.

well here are them pics =)

SHEILA MASJID! YOU'VE BEEN PUNKED!

The lead actress in the plot...kuthSUMAkk haha

The 'victim'...julyha.

Smart mamat is abg stone today for some reason.

Yeah bimbo.

Amalina reminds me of nasi briyani beramal. haha.

Suck-in-ah is shy

Wan punde!

No birthday's complete without a cake.

Erm...my cam sucks i know

Much better...though i look like some cheekopek bastard.
thanks to wan punde.

Lol burok shit.

Choc stain much.

Erm...okay i have no comments for this pic.

Suma's going all hot horny and wild on cake.

Yes she loves spongebob and patrick.

OOPS VAIN MOMENT.

haha birthday girl.

itchy

2008-08-05T12:14:00.002+08:00

ITCHING ITCHING.
To try it once again.
For it did work, somewhat.
Previously.

Arrghhh. I wish, i wish.
It would be easier than this.
That it wont be 50-50.
Hit the jack pot
or fall apart...

and start again (inside joke heheheheh)

Oooh the heart beats in its cage.
It wants to get out, wants to let loose.
After being cooked up, refrained, kept in check.
Just once, this once, maybe, it wont end up,
contradictory.

OH HOW THEY ITCH.
To just...hit and hope
and hit and hope and hit and hope.
To press that...button.
Oh shiny button.

Funny, im beating myself up just because of this.
Breath, breath.

How would the reaction be like?
Would they even react?
Will it be good, will it be bad?
The latter, will make me sad.
But you'd never know until you try.
But ive been trying time and again time and again.

Previously, it went well, somewhat.
During the 2nd part, pure bliss.
It just went on and on and on and on and on.
Too bad, it ended slightly abruptly.
Something got hit.

Big sighs aint cutting it.
Maybe ill wait till the sun sets.
Rays fade, stars rise.
Moon shines.
When everything's settled.
Then, it might start to itch...again.

Ive just realised, Fadlul being my best friend...
Ive never really took pictures with him...hmmm.

(Lance you're my other best friend too okay =) )

My dear drama head.

2008-08-04T00:45:00.003+08:00

Hmm, you know, after all the highs and lows of this year...

You're still a great drama head.

And a great friend =).

though im still really itching to post those pictures of you up here HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.
But its like fighting fire with fire. HAH.