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Sunday, September 30, 2007

Sunday hots

Little did one know that one not-so-little phone conversation would brighten up one's entire Sunday.

Even though one spent most of it sleeping.

Still it was bright okay.

Heeeheee so happy~~ =)

Oh and I made this out of boredom:

Ill whack any of you on the head if you say you don't like Paramore okay!!!

ilham26 @ 10:48 pm
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Saturday, September 29, 2007

Starbucks...again.

I've finished my starbucks theory lesson. Overall it was enjoying. Although the vast amounts of pure coffee (no milk, no sugar) we consumed is about to make my brain explode any moment now. Well i guess i have to get used to it.

Don't worry i wont forget you peeps in class la =)

If you were to ask everyone who's in the pic, i would dare say that 90% of them would say that they look sucky in the pic. I certainly do. MY HEAD IS SO SQUARE!
I want my long hair back please?!

ilham26 @ 12:20 am
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Friday, September 28, 2007

I'm bored...

Class is fun and all but what i really want is to start work at the store. I'm so bored now. I had been awake since after sahuring just now. On the plus side, I did manage to make a new song. Bass is not done though.

Damn I missed Irwan's birthday bash yesterday. Sorry guys i was damn tired.

I want to know Amin's secret on how to not think about the opposite sex (not in a very horny sexual disgusting way though) all the time and focus on my interests. I hate these feelings-for-another-person causing hormones. It's irritating. How i wish i could turn it off and maybe turn it back on when i'm happy with what i have, have a stable job and am ready to start a family. Oh Mr Switch, where are you??

I've never met someone who is obsessed with the outward physical appearance of others. Till it makes one's self-esteem plunge down.

I want my deng-deng me says.

Sometimes I feel like it's going nowhere and I just want to give up. I'm sooo gonna be ignored one fine day.

And sometimes we create songs so we can sing them to down-syndrome and autistic children this Saturday.

My shouts to people:

Fadlul : THANKS FOR THE PASS!!! XD XD. When i get my pay which is like 2163764375485845124215354765869876453245678654324567896543 years from now ill buy for you a...erm....flanger? YAY!

Tasha : Tasha dear why must you have exams. I wanna go buke with you then we can buy deng-deng at gayland! And someone's birthday is in a months time la...agak2. heh heh.

Qyna: Don't need to cry la gundu. Me and Fad pun tak jadik buke outside. Next time when you and KAKAK Diyana can make it ok =)

Diyana: OI DONT CALL ME UNCLE CARAMELLA ELLA ELLA EH EH EH LA IDIOT! =)

Miko ~25th September~

I'll miss you you crazy fat cat.

ilham26 @ 11:36 am
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Deaths

Theres been a couple of...erm...passes ons. These past few days.

The first one was MIKO. My auntie's crazy beloved cat. He died falling from the window of the 2nd floor of their 12th story flat. Poor Hadi, he chanced upon its mangled up carcass when he was going to school. The whole family's distraught. I am too. He was one crazy cat but we all loved him =(. Enjoy yourself in heaven dear Miko...

The 2nd one is. Well a person who I don't know. Though I've talked bad about him due to his crappy treatment of one of my friends. I don't wanna touch on this anymore but **** please be strong. I know you are =)

Inaillahwainaillahhirajiun (ive been typing this alot lately eyy O_O)

And to someone. Well you know who you are. Don't let it get to you kay? Well i know you're a lady and you ladies have your monthly lady thangs but I know ure better than that. Hope you'll feel better in the morn =).

Training was ok. I want Coach Boo back. He's so fun and round and bubbly. Haha.
One shot of pure Sulawesi coffee is 10X better than redbull. Trust me.

ilham26 @ 11:33 pm
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Work

I dont know why some people fret work. Especially if it's a part time job. Maybe they're just doing something they dont like. We'll I'm so not part of them. I'm totally enjoying what i've delved myself into. Hack the pay. I know it's small but who cares ey.

I have lots to talk about but not just yet. After tonight i suppose.

I haven't fulfilled all of Ramadan list of what to do. Well i've done the 21 rakaat terawih prayer. I haven't completed the Ayattul Kursi (is that how u spell it?)

But the most important one...I HAVEN'T been to GEYLANG to buy DENGDENG.

And to think SOMEONE doesn't know how to buy deng deng. Aiyoo you ah =P

Ikin...or her sis...said that I'll end up as a dangdut crazy pakcik who still listens to muse, when I'm old, cos i listen to arab songs. HUH WTF? LOL

OI FAD I WANT TO GO TO GEYLANG AND I WANT TO GO NOW! HAHA

ilham26 @ 12:54 pm
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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I had so many things to blog about...5 mins ago.

Now i just dont feel like blogging.

Dont ask me why...i don't feel like sharing either.

...

ilham26 @ 12:34 am
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Sunday, September 23, 2007

Thug replies...ok bedek la...tag replies =)

Syahira: What luckily? Ull like so melt cos i look so hot in the hair la...right? But dont pengsan okay? Although ill be there to catch ya...i dont think im strong enough =P

Kaye: Wah! Safe by the bi. LOLOL. but then..who's kaye?

Bridget: Oh thank you thank you. Very nice to see that i have fans =)

Germaine: Haha i love it too! YES same drama group! we must be the best group yea? You so act better than me. hah

Fadlul: EH I LOOK NICE OK. Next time we go out ill wear then ull be so jealous coz all the chicks will love my hot sexy thighs HAHA!

Yana: At least fadlul didnt laugh all by himself when everyone was silent. HAHAHAHA!!!

Abg Herman: HAHA ANOTHER FAN. LOL. Eh what i look better than that piece of texan shit. HAHA.

Sharifah Nabilla: Then u cannot always be emo la konyol. LOL.

Jasden: just then! hahaha. HIGH FIVE!

ilham26 @ 5:27 pm
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Saturday, September 22, 2007

Hairspray

Want to know if your hairstyle is a near total disaster?

Your cousins' shocked face when they see it.
Your little fatty sister calling you ugly.
Your Auntie and Uncle asking if you've turned into a good boy.
Your grandmother saying that the hairstyle looks nice.

I mean I love her and all and as she's my lil old granny but shorty you old school man.
REAL OLD school. Heh heh =)

But hack it, I don't care. I feel so free and easy since its short. And I kinda like it (does this mean that I'm in the same fashion league as my granny??? O_O) haha. Hair will always grow and and maybe I'd grow into the hair. No no not the head lice kinda way. Idiots.

So far theres 5 main reactions to my hair... :

This is what I'll most probably look like in Stickman version.
Do i look fat in this? HAHAHAHAHA WTF!?

This was my 2 little sibling's reaction. One of them called me ugly..im...ugly right?(yes syahira stop it ok lol)

This was IKIN'S response. Straight after that she laughed and laughed and said i looked like moses in Prince of Egypt.
Bitch let mah peeps go man!

This was an exaggerated version of my Auntie's response. Okay la it wasn't that bad till she fainted. What la you ilham.

I told u my grandmother likes it. HAH HAH!
Note her super floral granny shirt. Damn freaking hard to draw.

Erm...ahem...this erm was from my fantasy last night...
But from the looks of it i think she looks like FATIMAH ROCKER. (kak pon)
WTF WTF!!!???? KISSY KISSY!!!
But my oh my look at her assets. LOLOL SUPER WTF IM FASTING HELLO!!!

ilham26 @ 5:51 am
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Thursday, September 20, 2007

Reflections

I had a real hard time trying to sleep last night. I went to bed at 12.30 but tossed and turned and eventually fell asleep at 3.30 (that was how bad it was). There were too much thoughts going on in my head i guess. I came to a conclusion that I'm very complex and disoriented. I hide my true feelings through denial and a smile on my face. I'm too much of everything but nothing of something. More like a jack of all trades and a master of none. I feel like I don't have individuality. Like im a chameleon and a mix of everyone. And i find it hard to let it out. I can't cry it out thats for sure. No not because of manly ego but i just can't. Crap.

I have everyone but I need someone. I'm in need of someone but i'm not sure who. The search goes on then.

Should i go on and say that this post is too emo and so not me? But that's just denial. Well whatever...

On a lighter note, i have a starbucks interview after buke. Why after buke don't ask me. I've decided to take the job if ill get it. Enough lazing around. I want to try this new thing that i've always longed to do.

On an even lighter and happier note...MOANRINHO HAS BEEN SACKED. Finally that asscunt of a blabber mouth is out. This kills 2 birds with one stone. First, we'll hopefully won't see that asshole around anymore and 2nd, CHELSEA WILL BE SOOO SCREWED!!!

AvramoBICTH is happily pushing MOANrinho out of the doors of SHITford Bridge! HAHA!

ilham26 @ 6:53 pm
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Results

And...I...don't...have...to....RETAKE! YAY!

2.784 GPA BAYBEH AND TO THINK I ALMOST FAILED YESSAAAAH!!!

YAY YAY YAY.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

=)

ilham26 @ 2:01 pm
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Blood

As i lay down in bed waiting to fall asleep last night, i remembered hearing about the sad news of the death of Hasan's brother last year(or was it 2 years ago). Hakim, the boy who died after that volcano mini explosion in some indon island. It was published in the news.

I felt sad. Real sad while wondering how Hasan felt when he lost his brother. I would never want to lose any one of my 3 younger monkeys. No matter how much we fight, hate, scold, whack, kick, punch, pinch, bite, smack, cane, fart at each other. No matter how many times we took each others belongings, talk bad about each other to other people, threw each other's belongings away, used each others belongings and have it recorded. I'll never want to lose them. I'd even die for them. Those 3 monkeys. Gemok (izdi), bapok (ilyas) and fatgirl(iyan). Cos they're blood. Simple as that. Well izdi and iyan has more fats than blood but what the heck.

Oh and i had my hair cut. I wanted it REAL SHORT. and it ended up being REAL SHORT. I look like and idiot if its not waxed up. Doodeedoo. And the hairstylist was puuuurrrteeeyyy but thats not why i keep going to the place eventhough its all the way at bedok. They're gooood.

Iyan said this when she returned home from madrasah.

Iyan : Ewww abang you look ugly with that hair!

Me: Ewww iyan you look ugly coz ure fat!

See i love my siblings alot :)

I think i look better before. LOL.

ilham26 @ 5:14 pm
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Monday, September 17, 2007

Bitch mother come lick my bottom

Last night on the phone i realised this.
This morning when i woke up (well can't really say it was morning cos it was 12+) i realised this.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FREAKIN (ikin) LOLOL!!!
My best carzen evah!!!

Even though you can be such a bitch sometimes as to not let me watch ratatoille .

Please dont do an eqa and not invite me to MAKANZ XD

And you must sleep over on tues so we can cook and the watch liverpool!!!

Okay i think thats enough. HAH!

Now this was taken donkey years ago and i look so mat.
It mustve been Eid'il Fitri or Adha. Hrmm.
BUT JUST LOOK AT HER BIG JENDOL ITS LIKE FREAKING RADAR/SATELLITE COMBO RIGHT!?? HAH!

Last night some FREAKING LARGE BUG landed on izdi when he was in bed. LOL. HE literally flew from his bed and jumped up and down screaming MOTHER CAMEL!! HAHA! But it was freaking big la. As big as...my palm. AND i have a huge palm! (syahira it cant be as big as yours since yours is shrinking =P) Ok random. HAH! BUT STILL IT WAS FREAKING SCARY. So me and iz took the sheildtox non-odour spray and sprayed it. We took 10 mins to spray it continuously till it died (thats how big, strong and powerful it is). Then I took a shoebox cover to cover it coz both of us we're too scared that if we picked it up it will bite us with its super poison power bite and we'll die on the spot.

Izdi was like : Nanti die panggil members die cemane? (Later he call his members how?)

I was like (in my head): Mampos la kau kene since kau banyak lemak and lemak is sedap. Like kuah lemak or nasi lemak. yum yum. ( then you'll die first since ure fat and fats are nice like fat soup or fat rice. LOL!)

But since i was a good bro, i was like: Jangan takot la gemok gi tido je. (dont be scared fatty and just go to sleep). XD

So that was the end of the GIANT FREAKING FLYING BUG THING EXTRAVAGANZA!

Super freaking scary bug thing. Top is its top and bottom is its bottom. SCARY SHIT YEA?

ilham26 @ 1:07 pm
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Sunday, September 16, 2007

GOING CRAZY!!!

OMG IM GOING CRAZY!

I THINK IVE BEEN HIT BY THE BUG!

SHIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTT LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AIYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

FAD ONLY YOU KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH IM GOING CRAZY!!!

but in a happy way. BUT THEN. AAAAAAAH

OH and YAY KakNa and Abg Iman's making SOOOO many super fun plans when they return to dubai SO IM NOT GONNA WORK COZ I WANNA ENJOY THE FUN!

And starbucks also havent called so who give a shit eyy? =(.

WHATEVER LA.

Should do what lil miss syahira said...ROT at home. HAH! YAY! AND BAKE BAKE BAKE!

ok ilham you're craaaaaaazyyyy!

How do I look now dear Marie...do i look crazy to you? HAHAH IKAN!! HAHAHUANR NNO!NON N!@N E!@N JN! O:J( J!@J HJ!PU@H$YGO!Y@GO$

ilham26 @ 10:41 pm
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Saturday, September 15, 2007

15th?

I realised after sahur just now that I've been single for a month.

Yatassha CAMPBELL =P asked me if I liked someone now?

Hmm...I don't know...what do you think?

For me to know and for you to find out.

But then I dont really know.

Hmmm.......

This heart, it beats, beats for only you.
I LOVE THE SONG AT MY BLOG MAN!

Juff just told me that Khai's going for a surgery tmr. I hope everything turns out good. Insyaallah.

To people concerned...

Ikan: Sorry didn't reply, i was playing my com game. Like i said, you guys look super sweet together and i think he's the purrrrrfect guy for you la. Dont worry, you'll still be me and fad's lil fishball..okay maybe not so little... XD

Fadlul: OI IM NOT POSTBOX =P.

Suerya: Oooh YAY no problemo!!

Syahira: Im like so malu la omg! SO SORRY!

Liverpool: DISAPPOINTING SHIT LA YOU. ASSHOLE SIA! =(

ilham26 @ 9:47 pm
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Friday, September 14, 2007

The divine

I get oh so fascinated with Imams and the spiritual leaders of Islam. Well their knowledge and understanding of the faith.

From the memorising of the surahs, selawats, zikirs and the Quran to the understanding of the faith itself. Its just so fascinating.

I've always wanted to delve even deeper into Islam. To understand...not completely as you can never know as much as God. But to embrace it thoroughly. To be in love with it.

The warm comforting feeling of praying together in jemaah at the mosque. You can never have that feeling anywhere else. Maybe I'm hit with the Ramadan bug.
Which is a good thing. Hit me for life with that bug i say.

But still, living in this society, I'm not ready to be really pious. But theres always a start. Insyaallah.

Oh and Suerya i hope you like the card and cupcakes that WE gave you!!!

Cant stop thinking about you seh...grrr!! =P

ilham26 @ 11:18 pm
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Thursday, September 13, 2007

First day

Shahur: Nasi with kari ayam
Buke: Mee soto, my nutella cupcakes, half of a filet-o-fish (fish-o-fillet =P).

What I'll eat if I weren't fasting: MUCH MUCH MORE THAN THAT.

I'LL SO SLIM DOWN THIS RAMADAN HAHA!

Oh and did I mention that I baked nutella cupcakes today? It didn't turn out to be a disaster. Actually quite yummy. But i still need to improve on baking them so i'll bake some more tomorrow!

Yes la Syahira. Like mak mak cik right. Im not a guy right. and...and...im...UGLY....right? and fat right? Like a pig right? who is very jakun when he use the fax machine right? hahaha funny la you =P

OH OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...DRUM ROLL!!....SUERYA!

First the butter, sugar and eggs!

Then the flour and other barang2! (eg. chemical X)

THEN BLEND BEBEH BLEND!

Then you put them into their tiny lil cute erm...upside-down dresses.

VIOLA! With the nutella on top!

Eh idiot seh, haven't even baked you all wanna eat already? TAK PUASE ISIT?

Oh ceh theyre in here la.

MIND YOU I WAS FASTING WHEN I MADE THIS! and i didn't curik ayam ok =)

OH and i found pics of the banquet makan session last sat.

I so didn't fart. Yana did. She wanted to cover it up. asshole =P

Yana's LEPAK POSE AGAIN. Amin's sad because of britney's horrible MTV VMA performance HAHA! SHES FREAKING FAT LA AMIN!

I look super disgusting here. And yana is so staring at amin cos she's deeply in love with him. JUST LOOK AT HER EYES THEY TELL YOU EVERYTHING!

Amin is angry at kaye for not giving him and yana some alone time ;)

Amin can't be angry at me coz i look oh so adorable =)

ilham26 @ 11:39 pm
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Ramadan

Fasting month.

All them satans are locked up.

Merit points will increase howmany-fold through prayers and stuff.

Super =)

ilham26 @ 11:50 pm
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

The stupidest thing

I cut my left thumb while trying to peel my broken guitar pic into half with a razor sharp pen knife.

SUPER FREAKING STUPID RIGHT

OUCH PAIN!

Like some CSI crime scene...Uber cool!

Err yeah it was bleeding and i was kanchiong.

My pocong looking bandage!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARTLOL BAHALOL LOLOLOL ADZIM YAY! Baru je nak 17 kepe?? HAHAH!!!!

If you had a blog counter...im so dead =)

ilham26 @ 12:27 am
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Sunday, September 09, 2007

Two goodbyes, one sudden.

After the jolly-jolly session of eating, laughing and chit-chatting our asses off at the airport while sending off Bibik Rofa, my dad received a telephone call around 12 am when we were walking up the stairs on the way to our house. It was his sister. Usually calls like these in the middle of the night means bad news. This time, it was true.

We all expected it to be my grandmother, or Nyai, as we call her but it turned out to be one of my uncles. Cik Saleh, as we call him. Or rather, me and izdi refer to him as Cik Rocker cos his voice really was like a rocker. Heart-attack in KL. The worse was to follow.

It's a real shock since he looked fine and dandy just last Saturday when I saw him over at Kak Jiji's. This just goes to show that you may never know when your time will come.

And it's just last year that one of my uncles, dad's side too, passed away. God loves them more I suppose. But I'm sure both of them are in a better place.

Inaillahwainaillahhirajiun.

ilham26 @ 1:23 pm
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Saturday, September 08, 2007

I feel like an old man

Seriously. Football on Thurs and yesterday, my body can't take it! And then Afiq sms-ed me that he wants to play today. HAH! (i'm seriously considering it though =))

Well in my previous post I was exhausted, aching and...erm i can't tell you.

Initial plans on Fri were canceled due to unforeseen circumstances but hey things happen yea. But I had a great time though yesterday. Went to this gig with Purple Paige, Amateur Takes Control (ATC ROCKS YEAH YEAH ATC ROOOCKS AAAH I LOVE ATC!!!), Vinyl Summer and Hear Me Toby in the erm...band list thingy that i forgot what it was called XD.

ATC ROCKS LA OMG THEIR SONGS ARE SUPER NICE. No vocals though. All pianos and guitars and drums and a WHOLE lotta effects. SUPER NICE!

Having drama later on and with this sore body, i bet that i won't be jumping around too much. Bik Rofa will be flying back to indon today and I'll be there to send her off (partly cos I'll miss her & her cooking and partly cos they might go to swensens before sending her off). Yum Yum!

ilham26 @ 7:38 am
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Thursday, September 06, 2007

Football

It was ok...
My stamina sucks...
yeah whatever la...

ilham26 @ 8:45 pm
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007

I was bored today too!

I was bored today but instead of rambling on like some stupid matrep i went to bake cookies instead!! HOW COOL IS THAT!

YAY FOOTBALL TOMORROW! SO I CANT WAIT!
YAY FRIDAY I CANT WAIT BUT I WONT TELL YOU WHY!
YAY I LOVE MY COOKIES YAY!