Il Ham Mai Hum

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Look at the stars.
Look how it shines for you.

23rd March 2009 will always be deeply embedded in the far reaching depths(okay la not so far reaching) of my memory as the day where i went to the GREATEST CONCERT EVAHH.

Like seriously, paying only $91 bucks, this was so much better than say, Deathcab(Im sorry but i still love you kay? =) ) and all the other concerts that ive been too.

Tight, random, surprising and brilliant!

I (almost) cried at postcards and screamed my lungs out at YELLOW!

Too bad they didnt play shiver though booooo but still i love all of you coldplay people (band members i mean...no the fans...esp the tall ceena irritating bugger and the one who kept dancing like a duck) HAHA.

Some pictures to feast your eyes with! (credits to Poison Ivy)

Dee (Ivy beracun), Ikin the cuz and yours truly =) (kimak my hair flat)

HURRAY!!!

JONNY WITH HIS SKILLZ THAT KILLZ

LUCKY BASTARDS SIA REALLY.

Ants in mah pants.

Lovers in JAPAN!

No this is yellow and is so not postbox and postbox can never be compared to coldplay so shut up sakinah hmph.

INI BANJO BUKAN PIANO.

Thatll be me soon one day insyaallah amin.

Caught in the awestruck moment.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WANT THEIR GEAR!

Ballz of fury.

AHAHHAHAAAAAA I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THAT I FORGOT THE LYRICS TO SOME OF THEIR SONGS AND JUST HANTAMED BOLA AND SANG LALALALLALAL AND I THINK THE INDIAN LADY BESIDE ME TOTALLY HEARD ME. BUT SO WHAT RIGHT.

Oh and yesterday i went out with Saleha Big Eyez, Kamariah the Kalbi and Fadlul the dog/goat.
Im the only normal one heh!

Had so much fun, with lots of laughter too of course.
Its been so long since we went out with each other.
And us being us and mariah being the pemalas, our plans kept changing from badminton to movie to bowling to no bowling to westcoast to cardgames o_O.

It was great to finally go out with people who you could regard as being in the same wavelength as you religion wise. There can be no...courtesy constraints in our conversations, no holding back, us sharing the knowledge that we've all garnered so far. And with comfort in the thought that we all know that we're all practicing what we've learned (or...maybe not..sometimes).
It just doesnt get any better than this.

The trip totally reminded me of our times in Mecca and Madinah (we all went to umrah together)...well of course during that time we we'rent so close to them social wise.

From getting lost during the tawaf, noticing leah scurrying ahead while Sa'ee-ing.
Going round and round and round the Mecca city center mall.
Breaking fast right at the lift lobby.
Laughing, joking, praying and so much more.
Its a wonder that just one trip could bring back so much memories of THE trip that we had.
Alhamdulillah, that Umrah couldnt have been better than it was (but then...insyaallah it could la who knows.

Well, there is one thing that the four of us know and treasure oh so deeply...

God is the Greatest. And Muhammad is His Messenger.
=)

Picturez!

Timur Vs Barat.

EEEEHHH I LOOK FAT SHIT SIA EEEEEH.

Kamel-ariah and Fart-lul.

Maria pose.

Busstop buggers.

Nak step tangkap jambu la tu sheesh.

THESE EEDIOTS CAN CAMWHORE ANYWHERE

Walking rotten banana.

HAHA HIDUNG GATAL.

My poker face.

Babi Level 3 haha!

Tard.

West Side Pocongz. (and one east side sesat)

354 bebeh. (inside joke)

~~~

Too bad its quite on a different wavelength and level.
If not, it would've been perfect.
But it's okay.
We'll see what God has in store for us.

ilham26 @ 10:50 am
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

You will start to miss something when it is not there.
But you would take it for granted if it is always there.
I've been missing so much.
Ironic, cos i'd gladly rush up and down and give up near priceless hang out sessions for it.
Cos i love it and its right.
Now, well, the cousins are back and it's okay to take a break right?
But i feel as though the consequences are creeping in.
Complacency. Contemplation. Cornstarch. heh.

Nvm, insyallah soon. Back to normal. =).

Community.
With a leader and his assistants.
With a leader, his assistants and his followers.
All gunning for the same goal.

Funny, one minute you'd think that you can get them all.
And you start to think...which one which one.
And the next, you're left with none.
Off, Bad, Busy.
Funny how one can jump to so many conclusions, before even reaching the point.
It's like thinking...whats next after heaven...before obviously getting there.
Maybe it's human nature.

Work has been so far so good.
Staple staple.
Bye bye staple.
Haha.
Sec 1 kids are so annoying. Idiots.

Waking up on a saturday morning.
With Actduex's Starfire playing in your head.
Toot-toot. Toot-toot-toot-toot-toot. Toot-toot. heh.
Went to ubin!
Mosquito galore. Especially with me and my sweet bloodeh.

Ubin tmr too. urgh.

I saw someone who reminded me of you.
Though, she's like 19-13 = 6 years younger.
You were perfect.
I was stupid, childish and down right hornily hormonal.
No you're happy and it has backfired on me.
Oh well. At least you're happy i guess. =).
Though, its funny how you said you missed me when you stopped replying halfway through a convo...
twice.
That's what i hate...insincerity.
But who could blame you?
Maybe if fate has it.
Then itll have it.
Im over it. Im over it. Im over it.

(yes naq i am emo. haha. Though i like your voice...very squeakily cute. haha)

ilham26 @ 12:01 am
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Saturday, March 14, 2009

I know that it's been a really long time but...

WALK ON! WALK ON!
WITH HOPE! IN YOUR HEART!
AND YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!
YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!

HAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA 4-1 LA CB!

okay okay i know that the season is lost BUT STILL!!!! AAAHHHHHH

hmm...how can someone say that i treat her different, when she keeps doing the same thing over and over and over again? interesting really.

ilham26 @ 11:34 pm
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Thursday, March 12, 2009

It amazes me on how people make friends.

From events, school, places, friends of friends, friends of family, social networks or even at random.

There's no telling where and when your next new friend will pop up.

I stumbled upon this saying before; "When you're young, you'd have countless of friends, but when you're old, they'd most likely shrink down to only three".

Haha, tell that to my grandmother. She's always otp with her friends or chatting up with them when they come over. Thus, kampung life owns city life in terms of people you know.

Well, i dont really remember how i met this friend.

Oh ya, best friend liked friend, didnt work out, but still friends.

So like, i love it that we'd always make it a point to meet up and have dinner with lots of talk and laughter.

One of the things that really makes my world go round =)

Snaps from the outing with Sure-yeah and Father-loo!

Hello bebeh. Itz biznez time.

NAMPAK MINAH MINAH. DI BAWAH KOLONG.

Whore-licks madnezz!

bAbeE jEpoNzX

Sec school shit man. ABANG ANGKAT HAHA. ABG FADLUUUL. HAHA

Stare at her for a few secs. You'd definitely start laughing haha!

VE VILL BE EATING YOU MY CHEILD. NYEAHAHAHAHHA!

Selekeh nak mampos si budak ni.

Ordering food....with styley u_u.

Baby Jepun and Abg Baby. HAHA CB.

My burger face!

The rootbeer's giving me a good telling off. =(

Dont get MAD. Get Even. Esp with those nails haha.

My handwriting is an ARTFORM ASSHOLES!

HAHAHAHHAHA KIMAK MUKE!!!!

Our resident vacuum cleaner.

Eating like a king.

Ni la perangai budak east. Bodoh bodoh.

WEST SIDE MA FAKAS.

Sue, cheer up kay, and wake up early also. =)

ilham26 @ 11:51 pm
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I find it sadly funny. Okay more to the sad part.
That for our fellow Christian friends to go all proud and comfortable with their religion.
But not for muslims.
Say, for example, its easy to spot people wearing crosses stuff, reading bibles in the trains and busses, exclaiming their religious phrases (jesus christ, or hallelujah).

But for us, each time someone says out loud any religious phrases, everyone would go O_O.
And like, each time someone makes it a point to pray, everyone else would go O_O.
And be all sarcastic, calling them Ustat, Imam, etc etc.

Okay, im not calling for a sudden influx for religious trinkets (well cos theres no need for wearing necklaces or earrings with Allah and Muhammad inscriptions on them, and plus, it is degrading and would not portray God and His Messenger in the highest regard).

But like, when was the last time you hear someone (youth, most likely), uttering the taus, basmallah, takbir and all the other High Praises and invocations.

Maybe, my perspective of this is limited to only my hearing and sights.
But once again this is my blog so thus, my opinions.
I'm not perfect and once again, prone to various hormonal, rebellious and society's obstacles (with the help of Syaitan's whispers of encouragement).
But it would do so much as to just...know and be aware of fellow youths just like me, struggling against all these worldly obstacles for the sake of Allah and yes, to be accepted into his Paradise on the highest level (Jannah, Firdaus) insyallah.

Granted, i do know a few, but well, on the lightest note, we're not really on the same wavelength.
Language wise.
Im not being proud and arrogant that I'm quite the english oriented.
I do feel very very ashamed of my self due to my flimsy grasp of my own mothertongue.
But what can i do, i was brought up this way (not blaming anyone HEHE).
So yes, i long to know someone, my generation, who's so much as in love in religion as I am.
Someone that i can talk to, and open up, and not hold back for fear of accidently touching a raw nerve (sounds familliar). But yes of course, the ever present fear of going overboard and talking about things that we have no knowledge of.

Religion is complex, i think.
But complexity is always an aspect of something very beautiful.
So this if Religion = complex and complexity = beautiful, religion = beautiful =).

Complex in a sense that, besides the ground rules, there are so many other aspects, rules and regulations and commands to follow and put into practice.
I'm talking about Islam here people.

It's really sad to see all those terrorists with their misintepretations of the Holy Quran.
And commiting themselves to something that's strictly forbidden; suicide.
Nabi Muhammad saw ever said (or was this mentioned in the Quran, i forgot) that if someone were to commit suicide here on earth, he or she would be doing the exact same action over and over again in Akhirot (afterlife).
Like whoa, blowing yourself up over and over again. Difference is that you do not die and that you feel every single inch of pain.

You've got to blame the people in charge.
But only god knows.

I feel that muslims of my generation should look beyond the rules, beyond the prayes, beyond the restrictions (and when i say look beyond, i dont mean to ignore okay).
And that they should look into the beauty of it, the history of it, the knowledge it brings. (Islam i mean).

Like say for example, some of us can be so interested in mythical beings, flying horses, angels, dragons, horoscopes etc etc.
Mentioned in the Quran? Angels, Jinn, flying horse-mules (buroq), tales(facts of course) of paradise, hell, and so much more.
Its so filled with history from the beginning of man, and even before that.
Thats why I said that its beautiful.

But, well, God with guide whom He pleases.

Why do i talk alot about Islam?
Because I'm proud and thankful to be born as a Muslim.
I love religion, God and his prophet.
I fear god.
and I want to go to heaven =).

Anyone who reads this and goes like, whatever la this boy (i do know a few who do)
well, up yours.

ilham26 @ 10:53 am
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I KNOW SOME PEOPLE WHO ACT LIKE SLUTS.
EEE JIJIK.
TAK SENONOH.
JIJIK! JIJIK! JIJIK!.

AND THEY ACT LIKE BUDAK KECIK.
GROW UP ALREADY PLEASE.
but the worst part is the sluts part la.
Then like that, can still talk about religion.
Bagus la tu, dunie danak kiamat.

I miss going to ngaji.
Ive missed so much lately.
But like, my cousins are here and all.

OH WHEN CAN I GET OVER THAT.
IM SUCH A SUCKER.
PUSSY.
PUSSY PUSSY ME.

KENTAL LA ITS SO OBVIOUS RIGHT.
why am i typing in caps anyway?
BEST CASE SCENARIO PLEASE.
though its impossible.

lalalalaaaaa.

If only YOU knew.

~~~Perfect~~~

ilham26 @ 12:24 am
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Sunday, March 08, 2009

I read a book.
Okay i lied.

No la i actually did and am reading a book about Nabi Muhammad's biography and its good!
=D.

There's a tale...of two cats.
Bu and Mo.
Bu and Mo were from the same kampung (not related), though bu knew mo from the tree they usually played at because bu knew the tree also.
One day mo felt that the tree didnt like her anymore (cos maybe its branches kept falling on mo)
So mo didnt play with the tree anymore but mo was still friends with bu.
One day mo met rock.
Mo really liked rock.
Rock is stupid heh.
But Mo knew that bu found rock first.
So mo restricted mo's self from playing with rock.
rock is so so stupid HHAHAHA.
Rock, (though stupid, still has a rock brain) went a lil too far while playing with bu.
Maybe they like...were supposed to play catching but played ice and fire instead (which means catching + 1 level up).
Rock wasnt too comfortable. So rock told bu and bu got really upset.
upset rabak punye ah joy.
but after how many donkey cat years, mo thought that bu totally got over rock (still stupid after all those years)
So mo finally approached rock (after all the time of pushing mo's cat hormones to one side).
rock really liked mo.
and mo liked rock.
And i like roti kirai but thats not the point isit?
So best comes to best mo and rock became partners in crime and catching (do tell me, what else can you play with a rock?)
So like when bu found out, bu felt betrayed.
eh this story panjang la.

kay honestly now, bu and mo has their own scratching posts.
Recently, bu has scratched really bad scratches on bu's scratching post.
And my god those scratches were some mean scratches.
Anyone who'd see that scratches will get a scratch twitch.

But mo's also sometimes asking for it.
Cos mo would pass by bu's scratching post to see the scratches.
and would get enough scratch twitches to get agitated.
and scratch on her own scratchpost with relatively mean scratch twitch giving scratches.

As a cat lover, seeing both scratching posts, i honestly thing its time that you both stop.
meaow meaow.

Bu, honestly, youre a really nice cat. But some or most of the time, you let your cat hormones cloud your judgement. And you take the cat friend commandments a little too far.
And to want to reveal the cat secrets that you have, thats just low. cat ghetto low.
Every cat makes mistakes. Its curiousity, its in their nature. But to know something like that and to use is as a threat, is as low as stale friskies.

Mo, you ah, really asking for it you know.
Birds say dont pass by the scratching post, you still do.
Yeah you're agigtated that rock hangs with birds and that bu hangs with birds too.
But rock hangs with birds for birds and not for bu.
Mo, you have rock already. and rock really likes you (though rock is so stupid duuuu)
So what more can u ask for mo?
Stop cat-gitating yourself with cat twitches by passing by the scratching post la kay.
You've scratched your peace. Be the mature but still young cat and just stop all of it okay.

Bu and Mo, i know that you'd read this cos ive typed it in cat meaow language meaow meaow mee soto.

You might hate me i know. But its high time you both stop this cat fight cos its affecting us birds.
Birds so fly.
Birds sky high.

Bu, you're getting over rock (stupid duuu), you've made new birds.
Mo, you're with rock, your current birds still hold you dear (contrary to what has been scratched)
WHAT MORE IS THERE?! HAPPY ENDING KAN.
Khalas, Syukran, paper or plastic, bye.

Oh, this has been written in cat language meaow meaow mee soto. So if any of you guys reading
could understand cat language meaow meaow mee soto. Please refrain from reading this. =)
(macam faham you kaypos).

ilham26 @ 1:00 am
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Monday, March 02, 2009

As dawn breaks, yawns one.
It's not just a new day, another start, another opportunity.
Winds of change are blowing, from the east, from the west.
From any point of direction.

Enough, deviated enough from the initial, position.
Of character, of morality.
What changed you little sunflower?
Why did you die after being given water?

Oh the outer mould, that's the distraction.
When one's not up to it, and the innards have changed.
No wonder its all solitary.
That why the winds are blowing.

Lets boast,
Be proud,
Show the world.
That its here to stay.

ilham26 @ 11:07 am
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I love you for reading my nonsense. Okay you can stop smiling now.