Il Ham Mai Hum

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Neera I'm very happy for you. Ive never seen you so happy before and I myself am happy to see you happy =)

But sometimes, the things you say, is just too good to be true...

ilham26 @ 11:26 pm
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

That post was so...erm. It was the emotions baybeh, emotions.

I went to my first store meeting today. Was quite fun. Now everyone knows how slow and lame I am. Tuan is sooo funney. I'm so glad that i chose to work here. One of the things that i really do not regret doing (and yes i regret a whole lot of stuff that i've done recently). Heee=D

But its thanks to you super partners la. I can't wait for sunday!!!

Happy belated birthday Imah! =)

After that I went to lepak at S4 with yana, zaini, fiq and josie. Of course isk was there with his usual jokes. heh. IVE DISCOVERED THAT THERES A SUPER NICE HALAL HOT DOG JOINT AT SUNTEC MAN! SHIT IM SO GOING THERE NEXT TIME (i didn't eat the hotdog just now because i was so damn full). Yeap yeap. THERES CHEESE HOTDOG LAR SIALZ! (okay so malay)

Okay drama is tomorrow. Please oh please make me up...=)

Its real torture la. Serious shits...

ilham26 @ 11:51 pm
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It makes me sound so. I don't know.

The way they said it. Made me seem so wrong, doing the wrong things, saying the wrong things.

I've never been like this, ever. It's only this time. Why?

I want to get back to the old me. Without all these, things, holding me down. But i can't, i won't.

I've never seen her so happy. My friend, that is. Tall, smart and goodlooking. The chemical X for happiness.

I don't wish for much. I'm happy with who I am. But sometimes, it just doesn't feel enough. But no ham, some people are worse off, you know that.

Things must really change. Step by step.

Oh why do i sound so desperate. All these things and things and things. And more things.

Yes i do think too much sometimes. But put yourself in my shoes and you would do the same too would you? ask yourself that...

ilham26 @ 1:18 pm
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Monday, October 29, 2007

HEY! Why don't you take a peeeekture. CLIIIIICCCCK!!! hahahahahah!

I'm so not in school. SKIPPING TODAY BEBEH. Well i need the rest today okay.
So lepaking like crazy all the way today.

Hmm here are them pictures of yesterday's raya outing. IT WAS THE BOMB!
Have never laughed so much in my entire life.. HUAHAHAHHAA

Can someone please please teach me how to deposit your money into your bank account because i have so much cash now and i'm really itching to spend it all off!!!

If you look closely, you could see the spit. DISGUSTING

Thats faizul's face when he was watching near-naked chicks on mtv. HAH IM SERIOUS!

Faiz with his old school fisheye cam.

Sweet Selambe (is that how you spell it?)

Queen of the castle queen of the castle. haha

U, sape u telepon tu u? I jealous la u!
Nenek I la gendeng. HAH!

Old friends bebeh!

Faizul muke burok! Sentiase...

They're a couple obviously.

Theyre also a couple. Obviously. HAHA!

I can hear haireen and faizul plotting fad's death..haha

Ladiess!!!

We were at Mar-tunanged in shorts-diana's house.

Eh mat. Muke maintain ah. haha!

She used to scold me till I cried.
And she used to pour out the contents of my bag when i didn't bring my books.
And there was once when my underwear was in my bag...O_O

Damn i forgot to edit the lighting on this one.
HEHEHE PIMPIN!!!

Heeey hey hey ayun! Hows life baybeh!?

Matt KENTALZ. ( just how you would say it syahira =) )

AYAM BRAND CHILLI TUNA!

Sshh..shafiq's sleeping....
Yana, thats how you should lepak. haha!

We look so raya@kampung here man.

He's lucky that he has a good camera. Coz mah hotness will so melt da film bebeh!

Ladies!!~~~~and..old lady

Whats up with Illina's face. If thats how you spell her name...

Katijah = GGB. Gothic gile babi. HAHA!

WAZAAAAPPP!!!

My nostrils look like Angelina jolie's. ( YOURS doesn't okay. Your best friend was wrong! hehehehe =P )

We're heeeeee-ing into the night.
Just look at how faiz is looking at ayun. Bad bad bad...

They said we'd make a good........colgate advert =D

Kaypo sia.

Aaaah them black beauties baybeh!

She must be melting...on the inside =)

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiidontknowwhatposeisthis......

Katty is just..scary O_O

Someone joloked my jubo. Thus the face.

Faiz feeling up some guys at the back. WTF!!

Hahaha smooth criminal....

MATREP! haha!
Ayun's mom cooks killer chicken curry!

My mouth. You need to slap it. Hee. But watch the teeth okay. If not there wont be anymore colgate smile. heheh...
Then again...why not everyday? =P

ilham26 @ 9:40 am
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I went out jalaning raya with my PTPS peeps yay.

Pictures will be posted tomorrow, tomorrow, i love you, tomorrow. Haha.

LIVERPOOL IS LEADING 1-0!

=)

Aisha, ill try, but so far..its been real hard =(. But I must try!

Your message, text, made me feel like i was flying. =)

ilham26 @ 1:01 am
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Saturday, October 27, 2007

I know la my blog's not as interesting as yours cos i update almost everyday right? right? haha =P

Today is one topsy turvy day.

I bumped into faizul itik. Then i bumped into Kinah.

Then yana was late. Then someone snapped at me. Then i slept. Then i ate Mac breakfast thanks to someone (kidding!).

Then during our last lecture, I SLEPT. okay.

Then after that i went to pray.

There was this guy, who alighted at a busstop before the mosque's busstop and i was like, why would he want to walk so far. Then i remembered, pahala counts by the steps you take towards the mosque. I shouldve walked from school.

I almost slept during the khutbah...kutbah...cute-bar? huhu.

I MADE NADIRAH CRY. SORRY NADIRAH! I DIDN'T MEAN TO BE SO MEAN. I DIDN'T REALISE IT. SO SO SORRY!! =( =(.

Then i slept for 2 1/2 hours till 6. Solat and went to work.

Work is tiring. I so do not want to do closing again but what choice do i have. Fish gave us happy cards! (i forgot what its real name is). Sexaaay.

And now i'm super shagged with 2 bags of marked out food ready to satisfy my fat sibling's bellys. doodeedoo.

And yes. I really miss you like crazy =(. 3 days sia. walaaau.

Neera your words are super sweet da. Or isit..ah-ma. LOL. Sorry. Well i hope what you say might turn out to be true??? Insyaallah

That smile, you know which one, does it have any significance? Please tell me...

ilham26 @ 2:22 am
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Friday, October 26, 2007

Neera, your words...are damn sweet =).

Okay no matter how much i dread working late hours even before i start work. I'll always end up enjoying myself during work. Even if there are some crap shit customers. Really appreciate it you guys!

Them big peeps. (damn am i short or am i short? haha)

Work is fun if you have great happening people around you =)

HUAHAHA SORRY YANA I SOO HAD TO POST THIS PIC!

Fiq is one pretty ledeh

Yana was so playing need for speed. haha.

Nak balik kampong pe mat? haha

Fiq erm...being fiq?

Hahah candid baybeh!

She wanted to fart but tried to tahan. haha!

Im not trying to act modest la gundu. Sometimes i really can't shut my mouth up.
Guys, tend to over-react around girls they like and since i can't jump around like a monyet, my mouth...is taking over. Maybe thats why. So..bring duct tape for me will yea? =). And don't blame your pms la. Kesian die tau tak buat ape2. Haha. Yes i do deserve to be snapped at sometimes. But not all the time =)

And you seriously look stunning today...hehee..

ilham26 @ 10:19 am
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Its not that i don't wanna listen to you gundu girl. But now I'm super bored waiting for the transport that will so arrive an hours time heh.

Work was...FAST today. Huhu. I was stuck at POS which was a damn bore. Was super pelat (erm...how do i describe pelat...unable to pronounce words?) today. The worst was me trying to pronounce blackberry green tea frappuccino. It became brackbrerry green trea. haha! And i accidentally pressed 22 X cappuccinos when i actually needed 2. HAHA. Sick la. $100+ voided. Huahaha.

But work is really super fun. Yeap yeap.

Drama night coming up bebeh. 1 more week. We can do it lads!...laddys...erm..=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASHA DEAR!!! After your Os we can finally meet up! Ill so blanja you makan and buy you a super nice present!! =D. Hope it takes the pain away from this morning (liverpool..=( ). No worries bebeh! Liverpool will so totally bounce back and beat the crap out of arsenal.

No pictures lately, been busy.

Hey you. Don't over stress yourself la. But then its Os anyway. Your english is good enough but yeah it never hurts to improve. All the best for monday. Ill pray for ya! =). And don't let the stupid PMS get to you okay. But on the other hand, what do i know about PMS. Hmmm... So can't wait to see you tomorrow =). So missing you right now.

ilham26 @ 1:07 am
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Drama drama sexy mama cow fly into the sun burn water till black and became the sheep till drama tired and hungry coz pigs dig into their nose and comes out to china is very fragile coz if you bring a bull into the restaurant it will wash your dishes till dishwasher is happy like a frog who barks at bees as birds dont want to shit on cars which drives very slow like a snail eating tongkat ali on a stick stupid you're the one whos happy days oh happy snails sailing through the longkang near chua chu kang and dollie.

O...kay...my imagination is too wild. Needed a flush there. =D

AISHA oh dear aisha. Where would I be without your advice. How stupid and clueless and blind and thoughtless and heartless can i get. HAH. You must know la. Being in that position and all. Yes yes ill take your advice to heart =D =D. Patience is virtue!

Oh haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy birthday yana =D

STEVEN GERRARD GERRARD, HE'S BETTER THAN FAT LAMPARD.
O..kay...

Gundu girl, oh gundu girl. I didn't behave isit? grrrrr (eh sounds like raj) haha.
Neh, it's my fault. Real glad to see that you're trying but im not helping with my crapshits. Sorry for being so crapshitty. I promise not to be crapshitty anymore okay. Space baybeh space. And i meant what i said about how you looked today...=)

ilham26 @ 10:33 pm
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The lecturer's talking but is he saying anything? hmm no i don't think so.

Modules this semester has gotten really dry. To a point, well ive explained it.

I'm really really truly worried about drama night. How well we do it would not really reflect on us ourselves but on the whole Stage Arts Drama contingent. We don't want bad comments now do we?

Okay so we may not be professional and stuff, but hey, putting on a good show is what we've strived to do and with the way things are going now, i doubt it.

I'm not blaming anyone. Even I myself is to be blamed by turning up late and stuffs.

Lecturer please shut up, i need to think.

We'll, with god's will we'd do it. But theres an even bigger, more important problem now that needs urgent attention: I need food. =)

I pictured your reaction to be different. But nope. Maybe my imagination can go really wild sometimes. But alas that's not reality. Honestly, i didn't really mean what i said. Acceptance will come if it does happen but obviously, sadness will always be first. And in that dream, i was by your side, wishing hoping praying against all odds that you will not pass. Eventually, it was a happy ending. How i wish this could be reality.

ilham26 @ 8:39 am
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I skipped the last lecture and for what price?

To go home early for once for a good rest.

To catch up with my prayers.

To eat a good home cooked meal instead of muching down on those msg-laden crapshits at mac.

Hell yeah it was worth it.

School is getting worse by the day. The journey long, the subjects dry, the lecturers dead.

Until, I have only 2 reasons to come to school willingly everyday, and one of them is drama.

I'm burning out soon. I'm running out of ideas. Please give me a sign if i'm on the right track or should i just let it all go away. Coz it seems that i'm giving you these messages, but you're not replying it. Or maybe, being the ass, i assume to much?

because it's much much more than 'like'...

ilham26 @ 5:43 pm
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Monday, October 22, 2007

I stole this picture from eqa's blog. We were at this jap restaurant run by Kakak Yumi's mom. Food = super great even though I'm not such a fan of jap food.

I miss Ohana and our crazy outings together. I so can't wait for january when both of you will return... Plus with the new addition into the family insyaallah, things will definitely be a lot more keco-er =)

I really really had a great time for you today. Though it still bugs me that you looked tired through out. This is why i told you to sleep early the other days. Nevermind, i still had a great time though. If only we could do this more often, alas, you still need time....

And you know what...our picture...it wasn't saved. And you always look good no matter what. Dont be such a pessimist okay? =)

Ohana means family =)

Instead of always thinking of the bad things that might happen if it turned out badly, even though it hasn't started...why not think about how great it would be if it did happen and went well. I'm all ready to prove to you that it will, if you give me the chance...

Our pic wasn't saved =((. and i mean what i said in the message in the mrt =D

ilham26 @ 6:15 pm
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Sunday, October 21, 2007

That sentence...it crushed me.

Marxie, things sounded so sweet the way you said it. Unfortunately reality is a bitch.

Total fucking bitch...

Why give false hope if u urself are not confident of the outcome??

ilham26 @ 10:43 pm
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Work was torture

OH YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE BEBEH! 2-1. HAHAHA! FUCK YOU EVERTON YOU BITCH ASS CUNTS YOU DESERVE TO GET RELEGATED LA ASSHOLES GO AND DIE LA YOU EVERSHIT. FUCK OFF FROM LIVERPOOL LOSERS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHA I LOVE TORRES COZ HES SO GOOD AND SO HOT AND IM SO NOT GAY LA BUT LIVERPOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLL YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like vomiting. I worked for 11 hours (okay la kinda kental right) but im a noob so ive got an excuse okay.

But kesian la lai le lai le (laila). Doing closing.

Saturdays suck. My legs feel like chopsticks.

But my problems can never be measured against yours...

Im gonna ngorok the whole day tomorrow, the way you do after eating your oreo cheesecake. Hehehe =P

But difference is...im no badak la. huahaha.

Im tired so ill be random.

Im worried about our drama group. Shit sia were so unprepared. Mother camel benar. Aiyoo and drama nite is next next fri omg omg.

Okay the water's hot...but not as hot me bebeh! =). MMMMMandi time!

I love your secret messages. but, not as much as i love u =)
Marxie...knows... O_O

ilham26 @ 1:49 am
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Friday, October 19, 2007

And they passed on...

Wipe away those tears my dear. For I know that you are strong.
She's in a better place, because god loves her more...
And remember, it is a Friday.

Ina illah wa ina illah hirajiun.

But, if you need company for comfort, I will always be there for you...=)

ilham26 @ 10:50 pm
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Super shagged

It's 3.05 am now and I'm waiting for the waterheater to heat up the water. My eye lids are heavy, my head is throbbing, i have eyebags and yet i have to bathe and pray. I'm not complaining bout the praying part though.

Reason for this is because i did closing today. I have one thing to say...I HATE CLOSING! Was supposed to finish at 11 but since im a nice guy and all, heh, i decided to stay around to help the other 3 closers la. Plus im being paid so what the heck.

Christmas promotion is coming up and we've got new pastries. I cant wait to see what the new drinks would be like. Brought home a cheesecake and a banana panacotta for the adiks. Syahira i really wanted to take an oreo cheesecake for you but it was sold out by the time it was marked out so next time kay =)

Shit i have only 3 hours to sleep. I so want to skip school but both my heart and head says no. My body says : KANINA CHEEBYE LA TIRED LA EEYYY!!!. Majority wins i guess.

Okay i think the waters hot enough now. And im really tired. Omg...

Ive been saying this a thousand times...but the truth is, i really do miss you..all the time and especially now. I guess u must be sick of me saying that. But sometimes i wonder...if u really do care...

ilham26 @ 3:05 am
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Vietnam

My mom flew off to Vietnam today. I hope and pray that she'll be alright. I just can't imagine what'll happen to me if anything happens to her there. I soo do not want to think about it.

Went to lepak with Fadlul leg hair boy and ikan cockfish/cock dog. She made a new word! Cock ass. haha! An addition to her collection of cock head and cock eye. I called her cock breasts and asked her to imagine it. Haha sick!

I dragged them from raffles city (well i wanted to solat first whaat) to one fullerton, to citylink and then to raffles city SC cos ikan cockfish wanted to eat ben and jerrys. But after passing by DONUT FACTORY and noticing the super short que, we changed our minds. Me and fad went to line up while cockfish bought fried mars bars WHICH IS THE SEX. We ate and laughed and talked. Just like them good times =).

Lance, it's okay man. We're still young so don't be so affected by it okay? You still have your QQs and me. =)

Love them parents. Although they can be cuckoo asses sometimes...=)

Yana, Syahira, nak sangat kan? Ambik korang! haha. I look better meh? yar ugly whaat..and fat...=P haha!
Eh alamak pocket loaded ah beb! Maluuu!!!
People say that me and my dad look alike. But i don't see any resemblance...do you?? =)

I cant wait for friday night and next monday insyaallah...heeeee =DD

ilham26 @ 11:51 pm
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I love you for reading my nonsense. Okay you can stop smiling now.