Il Ham Mai Hum

Saturday, September 20, 2008

It is time.
To humble yourself down.

See you in two weeks.

ilham26 @ 2:23 pm
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Monday, September 15, 2008

Had a kenduri at home yesterday.
The whole gang came down.

Honestly, I've never really expected this.
I've always thought the trip was something silent, secret, between me and HIM.
Never really expected the attention, the significance, the..yeah.
It's really a surprise & shock to me to see all this.

Maybe i've not understood it fully.
How big an occasion it is.
Though what i'd be doing is considered the smaller part.
But still.

But still, its great to see that religion still plays a big role in my family.
Religion is still something that holds our bond.
Maybe its the mix, intertwining aspects of our traditional values and religion that what we consider family is family.

I'm glad I'm Asian.
I'm glad I'm Muslim.

Seeing all these westernisationing of my country makes me ask myself this question.
Why do people over here want so much to be people over there?
IMO, we have better family values, respect, ties and humility.
Not being prejudice though.

And to hold strong in Islam.
Makes me feel that i'm out of the norm,
sets me apart from the rest,
takes me out of the majority,
and places me in God's company.
Insyallah.

Which i would seriously like btw.

But it all brings me back to this.
This...trip.
That started out as a random 'hey can i join?'
That leads to classes, sessions which opened up my mind,
opened up my heart,
clarified doubts and wrong practices.
Brings about guiding light to the already lighted path which was crooked to me before.
And it all leads to this.

To see, everyone, together again.
Just like old times.
Before all these...conflicts.
Just like old times.
The oldies sitting there laughing, chatting, having their coffee in the living room.
My generation, all held up in the bed room, teasing each other.
The young ones running about like wild monkeys with toys in their hands.
Just like old times.

I kept quiet when all of you asked me to say something.
Yes I am very shy in these situations.
But the reason behind my silence is that my words would mean nothing.
Over here though.

But trust me, my family.
The words that i will utter over there.
It will be for you, mostly.
And those words are the ones that will really matter.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.
For everything that has happened.
And will happen.
For it is all in HIS greater plan.

ilham26 @ 11:10 am
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Thursday, September 11, 2008

Tralalalala.

I'm so gonna regret staying up this late over sahur later on.

And i haven't even bathed and solated yet.

Sheesh.

Okay okay events this week.

GOT DD-20! J&K OVERDRIVE FIXED! GUITAR SET UP!

Zomg im so on the road to getting my full set done (though its only like 30% done???)

Had a basic food & hygiene course just now. Was okay la. Had its fun parts, had its boring sleepy dry parts. But all in all, i was paid to go and it was from 8-6 so im not complaining (gaji bom!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FADLUL!
Baru mau jejak 18 pe? Gue da naik mendak ah siolll.
HAHA.
GONNA HAVE FUN TMR AND I HOPE YOU LIKE THE PRESENT I BOUGHT YOU!
Okay cheebye i sound gay and its as if he's my boyfriend sia eewww...
(mariah curry if you're reading this don't laugh).

2 late night out events that happened lately!

ROCKSTARCREW'S FIRST GEHG ORG BYE HEIDER!

Nyehh cock face cock face

Doing some clubbing martial arts move lol

The light reflected from my teeth were too much for izzy to handle lol.

THE FART-EQA'S BIRTHDAY DINNER AT FISH&CO WITH FAMILLIA!

ALALALA DING DING NYER NYER NYER. FREAKING HEART MELTER SHIZ THIS ONE!

Mak: Indian/Malay. Bapak: Melayu lepak. Anak muke cine. apee jee.

The lady at the front is adorable.
The one at the back is just plain disgusting. HUEHEHEHE

Yes its her birthday thus the pic. Thats Fart-Eqa

Fatboy. The brother.

Fat dad. The Dad.

The whole jinggang.

EH ALAMAK AKU BACKGROUND LEPAK SHOT SIOLZ.
And my dad doing his common thang.

Marmee and Kark Eeeelaaaaaa

Tudung mom. The mom.
Fart. The cuz.
Fat Dad. Still doing his thang.

Fat girl. The sister.

EH BRO MUKE MAINTAIN AH PENAT KE DARI KEJE HAHA JANGAN STONE AH DOK.

ALALALA YANG CENTER ONE IS CUTE.
YANG LAIN SEMUE MUKE MONYET!

HEART MELTAH!

The Ibrahims.

The Othmans (except the mat kpo at the left.)
I look manje but im not okay. I was tired and my mom's squishy cushion like arm was the shit.

NOW WTF IS WRONG WITCHOO?

ALAMAK UNGLAM LA.
Oh thats Kark Yarn right there.

EEEE VAIN CAMWHORE LOL.

SEDARE MARERS.

Kau curi hati ku...kau curi hati ku.

Stressed out from this cruel world.

Hot guy!

Japan hour.

Shit i'm the one who's 18 and she gets to drive.

She makes Hamilton shit in his pants and eat it.

I'm the F1 BABY MAFAKAS!

CUUUTTEEEE!
MIMAR WE MISS YOU!

ilham26 @ 12:26 am
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Tuesday, September 09, 2008

EH CHOPE CHOPE AKU ADE FEELING ADE FEELING MAU KENE TULIS.

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Pristine, immaculate, dressed in a flawless white robe. Looking oh so ever pure and clean, as always.

He sets off. Fresh from religious studies. Refreshed, his mind is.

As he walk, sandals scraping the dirt path that leads back to his home, he looks up and gazes into the stars.

Things have been going perfect, he proclaimed in his heart. A life filled with neither countless material possessions nor luxury items but steeped in satisfaction and stability.

"God's way is the only way", he said to himself, smiling. "I don't think anything would happen to jeopardize this life of mine." he added, with a slight chuckle.

How wrong could he be.

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OKAY TO BE CONTINUED. DA TAK SHIOK STEAM LAGI SORRY DOK.

haha whattaf.

ilham26 @ 11:34 pm
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GOT MY LONG AWAITED DD-20! YAAAAAAAAAYYY!!!

Its the holidays but it doesn't really feel like it though.

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

This that i really miss:

Hanging out, shisha-ing and just wasting the night away with friends...

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

The pig

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

Lance

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

Great big noisy family gatherings

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

3bulaning with suerya

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

theres somemore but i forgot.

but what ever it is...

DD-20 is awesome YAY!!!

=DD

ilham26 @ 11:12 pm
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Sunday, September 07, 2008

It's 1am now and the internet's gone all whack.
Just like it always does at this time.
Oh people why can't you go to sleep early?
So that i could youtube my way into the deep darkness of the night?

Saturday. Hmm.
Another weekly dose of religious knowledge.
Still, i'm left wanting for more.
I really can't wait for umrah.
Though i feel ready and unprepared at the same time.

I don't know what challenges, hurdles or tests that will be put forth.
For only there will there be a lot of those coming at you.
To test your resolve, your strength, your remembrance of the Almighty.
And no, he is not a black man dressed in white, speaking english, telling you to build an arc.
Certainly not your run of the mill hollywood kafir imagination.

This is the real deal.

I feel so new, so pristine to this...thing.
To its ways, views on others and its teachings.
Differ it does from what i've been taught since young.
Sometimes i feel lost, afraid, asking myself what have i gotten into?

But week in week out, familiar faces become even more familiar.
Awkwardness turns to comfort.
Absorbing, nodding turns to questioning, asking.
And there's even a tinge of feeling.
Though after research, its impossible.

I've not really put this Ramadan to full, good use.
Jamming nights, homeclub.
Is that what you're supposed to do during this holy month?
It isnt as if it comes all the time.

Still, it's only the first week.
Hopefully the next 2 will be put to good use.
and the last will justify a year's worth of mangkuling and learning.

I view my brother as a sad disgrace and example to the common Malay teens of Singapore.
Fat, lazy and annoying.
And it makes me sick.
Wake up and stop being a burden please.

Filet-no-Fish.

ilham26 @ 1:04 am
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Monday, September 01, 2008

Hmm yes and so the EXAMS ARE OVAH.
Really feels good to not have that load of school stress on your back anymore.
No more late night mugging.
No more worrying about unfinished projects.
No more finishing unfinished projects which were due three weeks earlier.
HAH!
Though i do miss math...weirdo.

Ramadan is here. Yes yes the fasting month yes fast fast fast.
Or is it?
It's more than that you know.
It's more than just abstaining from food and drink (and ciggs for you smokers) from dawn till dusk.
It's abstaining from everything that taints your soul.
I really find it funny why some people fast and yet they dont pray.
Or some people drink but yet they fast.
I mean why waste your time huh?
Or the minute the sun sets, they get back to their dirty deeds.
It's called a holy month for a reason.

Well maybe i may never know what goes on in their heads.
Maybe im the same, or rather, worse off.
Who knows.
But then, you can always try.

In my opinion.
Theres no other feeling,
nor any other emotion,
that you can feel
other than in prayer.

I bet if i were to say this outside, i'd be called kental (geek...religious geek in this sense)
But the sad part is, it would be the 'muslims' saying this.
Get me?

Religion gives me identity, makes me different.
Yet, it gives me company and solace at the same time.
Well that's my opinion.

This world is just a test.
And i intend to pass it, with flying colours, insyallah.

And the reason to why i left early the other day?
Hmm...its Ramadan...so...baybeats or the mosque?
You make your choice.
For i've already made mine.

ilham26 @ 11:37 pm
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I love you for reading my nonsense. Okay you can stop smiling now.