Il Ham Mai Hum

Monday, December 29, 2008

I like to watch you sleep.

Well i like to watch you smile.

It's been three.
It's been three.
So don't worry,
and let things flow slowly.

Sweet dreams, lonely.

ilham26 @ 10:47 pm
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Friday, December 26, 2008

WAHHH SEH FUXKING NICE LARR SEEYYYY.

KUDOS TO DANNY PHYO PHYO PHYO LOLOL PHYO PHYO.
I was his assistant for the day HAHAHA.
MORE PIX SOON WAHH THIS ONE NICE LA CHEEBYEEEE

ilham26 @ 1:31 am
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Thursday, December 25, 2008

Maybe im just bitter and boring lol.
Okay la okay la.

Selamat Christmas to fellow Christian readers.

Okay okay go enjoy your kayu balak kek, panggang ayam belanda and madu bakar babi. HAHA.

Hmm so how did i spend this year's christmas eve amidst all the pissed drunk shit faced partygoers?

Midnight cycling in the nice cold wind, chat chat chattin at the coffeeshop till 4am, getting ripped off on pathetic (but still nice) chicken chop and horlicks peng.

I've just realised. You can replace us all you want cos honestly, we're not at a loss.
Because we have us. And you have...whoever's with you.

Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality. Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality.
Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality. Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality.
Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality. Life's not a fairytale. Wake up to reality.

Oh oh Sunday's THE NEW YEAR!
Fuck gregorian. Lets go HIJRI FOR NOW.
Not that there's much religious significance in it i suppose.
Theres only two days and 4 (insyallah) sacred months in the hijri.
But YAY NEW YEAR HAPPY MUHARRAM 1430!
This sunday la.
Maybe in saudi they'd throw dates into the sky i dont know. haha.

YA MARHAH MARHAH.

ilham26 @ 2:29 pm
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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Hmm so last night me and the family went to the night safari.
Yes the animals were interesting.
But the fact that the entry fee, food and souvenirs there were OVER THE TOP.

Tshirts for $30++, VEGETARIAN BRIYANI FOR $15!? ICE KACANG FOR $5!
Hungry anyone?

But we were more entertained by the amount of foreigners there. Holiday-ers and the workers there. Till the point that we could hardly understand what the hooblah our guide was blabbering about. From the disastrous pronunciation of words and animal names to the really funny tones and added 'dramatic effect' to her descriptions.

I felt that the whole extra 1.5million foreigner population was concentrated right here in the safari (or sa-ferry to the guide). hahaha.

I mean, okay la you guys come here to work and all but what would them fories think of our language here.
Before anyone start to say that im being racist, im not. Because there are malays who can speak english well, and malays that cant, pillips who can, pillips who cant and the list goes on.

But all in all, the trip was very much enjoyable. And me and mum were jumping for joy when we found out that we would not be sitting near a couple of VERY SMELLY tourists.

Swensens after that topped of the day.
Too bad fatboy didnt join us today though. Dont know what's up with him....I think its the Im-just-too-cool-for-my-family phase lah.

oh sorry no pictures...of all times, we forgot to bring the cam hah.
I did got me a cool zebra shirt though (at the expense of my mom's credit and dad's nagging of unapproval).

Shit. talking about this reminds me of....PENGUIN MEAT O_O.

ilham26 @ 1:29 pm
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Saturday, December 20, 2008

So, it has finally sunk in.

Oh no no, not because of the post that i got.

But the fact that we won't be seeing our seniors anymore.

=(.

God, i've never felt as old as this ever in my life.
I feel, responsible and ancient.

Was it only last april that i just joined stage arts?
That i felt so called 'safe' in the presence of my seniors.
That i felt that all i am to do is follow, follow and follow.
Not lead?

Was it only last year and a week ago where we would always wait for the seniors' announcements?
About events, rehearsals, practice sessions.
Rooms will pop out like magic.
Stuffs to use appear out of nowhere?
And now, it is all on us.

But lets take it step by step. And as a challenge yes.
And I admit, it does feel good to be in charge, even when you're only designated as an assistant.

Seniors, i will miss you, every one of you.

Farhana, your burokness.
Rabia, your tight hugs and scary stares.
Anjana your cartoon like laughter and drama guidance.
Syidah, your lepakness and fun loving aura.
Sara your sweet, cool, calm and collected personality.
Wawa, your gabra, makcikness and attention to detail.
Ina, your tendency to get shocked at every small thing.
Sihah, your fluffy voice and vainness.

All of you made my life in StageArts complete and never once mundane.

And i would really like to apologize,

I do admit that im not really Mr Nice Guy.
I admit that there were times when i complained, whined, sulked, cursed and of course, talked behind your backs.
There were times when i really did not feel like coming, helping, participating.
And i knew that you knew it.

But what i can say is, I am certain that i'm not the same person as I was in January,
or even in June.
And it is all thanks to you guys.
Who molded me in every different way and angle possible.
And i really appreciate it, alot.

I love all of you.
And i promise that as appointed Assistant Drama Head, that i would do everything in my power to keep up the already high standard.
And of course, bring it to the next level.

And hopefully, to emulate your success, and maybe, to have a fellow junior blog about it when i step down next year.

Thank you my dearly beloved seniors.

Runaway From Danger Girl and Miss Distract.

RAFD Girl and The Shaman.

Stretch and RAFD Girl

Our beloved batch!!!

The Year 1 & 3 play.

Year 2 seniors play yay!
ACCORDING TO MY PREDICTIONS!!!...hahah!

Zee emzeez

Our very own composer! Ewwwwnice eeeeee haha.

Si due pat seblah kanan tu tonggek mau apa sih?

Makecouples!
Wawa: Macam nak kawing gitu eh. haha

MCH guys

EEEEEEEEEEEE PORN

THATS TWO GUYS HELLOOO

And thats a guy HELLOOOO!

Nyehhh.

Thank god i didnt make a mistake!

After all the last minute practice

Ill miss the three of youss

Thank you so much guys for coming! It meant so much.
I love all of you =).

I really need to invest in a good camera so i won't revert to stealing pics from others HAHA

ilham26 @ 2:46 pm
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Friday, December 19, 2008

Big walks and sweetest smiles.
Penguin meet and ant's slippers.
hah.

Syukur Alhamdulillah-hiRabbil-Alameen.

Muhammad Ilham Bin Othman, Assistant Head of Drama.
Does have that nice ring to it doesn't it?
Heeeeeeeeeeeee =D.

To passerby.

Everyone does things on impulse. Usually it's bad.
Others call it in the spur of the moment, Muslims call it Syaitan's whispers.
Yes i did write that post on impulse...
but...

who the FUCK are you to care?
Fuck you la if i would wanna write about my whole family that's my fucking problem not yours.
Please don't try to be some religious preacher or what not, trying to say this and that.
I am answerable to my own doings so you mind your own fucking business please thanks.
You wanna talk about Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.
In my opinion, we can do everything to emulate him, but he's THE perfect human being.
I know my weaknesses and flaws and i write with my own free will.
This is my blog you fuck shit so if you don't like it you dont read it la.
I myself know that i'd never substitute my siblings for anyone so who the fuck are you to care if i ever write bad stuffs about that.
You say its berdosa to call people bad stuffs or vulgarities, but its people like you who make people say this things.
And i wouldn't bother finding out who you are cos you're too much of a pussy to put your own name.
So as a passerby, you can pass this by, cos honestly, your thoughts aren't needed thank you very much.

ilham26 @ 12:49 am
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

WHY.

3 COUPLES MAKING OUT.

IN FREAKIN PUBLIC

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Mer-lar-you largi.

I mean, you wanna make out, thats your problem BUT IN PRIVATE PLEASE THANKS.

ITS NOT SWEET, ITS DISGUST!

Unless...you know...in personal terms...NYEH.

Today was the last drama session.
And ironically, we didnt do any drama.
Had a half failed, half almost failed surprise LOLOL.
And a very sweet and hilarious reminiscent session.
All in all, its very daunting to be a year 3 senior soon.
Committee or not, ill still love drama and acting and my drama mamas and makeup cows.
=)

And to you peeps who don't know what i do during cca when im not acting....

MAKE UP TEST LULZ!

MCH YEAH

All fighting over the sad poor mirror.

Gold-ina

Ina and Sihah the sihat

I AM GRASSHOPPER MAN HELLZ YEAH

Yat

Rab

COW

Lizurd

FIFI - KETAWA BUROK HAHAHAHAH

Naqiah =D

HAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA BUROK SHIT

Danny

Wawa

HAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAA MORE BUROK SHIT

And to those who think that i was cool....
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GRASSHOPPER MAN!!!!

ilham26 @ 12:03 am
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

I promised myself to be nicer to him.
I pray everyday that he'd change.
and that i'd be a better brother.

What do all of us get?

Fuck man. If he were'nt flesh and blood and if this were my house, i'd kick him out by now.
To hell with him, he can jolly well rot in the streets.

He has no damn good reason for his attitude and behavior.

We're not even from a fucking broken family.

Thus shows how bloody hell ungrateful that asshole is.

Yes yes maybe i may not know how it feels like from the parent's point of view.
But is he bringing any joy to this family???

Why always give in to him at the expense of others?
Why force us to give our stuff when ITS A FACT that he's an idiot who doesn't give a shit about taking care about other people's things?
Why go all the way back just to unlock the door just because he's so much of an idiot to not bring his keys?
Why risk the house's safety just so that he could get in when he forgot to bring his keys?
Fuck him la, he can jolly well rot outside till someone gets home.

Why do i always fight with him even though the problem doesn't concern me?
Because it pains me as the eldest to see the younger ones get bullied by someone with a buffalo as a body and brain of a fucking toddler!
Protect the weak yes. 15 versus 11 and 10. Whos the weak one?

Yes the little ones do know how to answer back and it IS rude.
But with a bloody hitler around them most of the time, who wouldn't? they need their rights to their own belongings too.

Whatever happened to asking nicely, please and thank you.
Are'nt we civilised?
Aren't we Muslims?

As a family we're supposed to share yes.
But there's such a thing as asking and not forcing when declined, however much you want it.
Because it is not yours.

I love you ma, pa.
Though i may not know how much you go through day in day out.
But i will never know what your plan is.
But there has to be a line drawn somewhere...

Being brave enough to talk back, answer or to raise your voice to your parents.
It's one of the 7 biggest sins in Islam.
Allah won't even look at you on Kiamah if you're one of them.
And heaven will be barred from you.

I don't want to be part of that just because of THAT idiot.
But yes its hard.

To the people related, don't comment if you haven't lived with him day in day out.

ilham26 @ 12:14 pm
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Friday, December 05, 2008

I went to Fatmah's / babassssspiccesssss' house in the afternoon just now.
I like the house...its so...mellow...thats what id call it...mellow.
What caught my eye was a large portrait of her grandad on the wall.

It didnt strike me much till i got home and saw pictures of my grandad on facebook.
Uploaded by my dear cousin chachambo.

It made me think....

Tuk,
How would you be like if you were still alive?
How would you sound like?
Will i kiss you on both cheeks after salaming you just like i do to nenek and mama?
Would you be our family's strong pillar of faith, religion and ties?
What would you have done about all the conflicts that's been going around?
Who would you be? Who would you be?
I suddenly miss you atuk wuv.

InsyaAllah, we'll meet in heaven some day.
InsyaAllah.

Good old days? (im not in this pic though)

Good old days, not so good...situation. HAHA (cuzs, you know what i mean)

ilham26 @ 1:33 am
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Thursday, December 04, 2008

Cactus cactus.
Ive just hurt my left wrist with a cactus.
-____-.
Of all decorations ma, you just had to pick the cactus.
Cactus just had to be beside the laptop.
Hand just had to be GATAL.
haha.

Updates on my life;

4 TESTS DONE.
3 TESTS TO GO HAHA HELLZ YEAH.
Next week will be eid Al-adha. or eid'il adha? or aidil adha? or hari raya haji? haha.
There's gonna be some changes to my hari raya. But thats for me to know and for you to find out!
Btw, do fast this sun. The day before raya. InsyaAllah your sins a year before and a year after the day of fast would be forgiven. Now who wouldn't want that tell meh?

I had fun this and last week! =)

Sya's birthday!