Il Ham Mai Hum

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

So today will be the day when * goes into the hostel. This is another reason why i hate the Gz so much man. I can't really tell you about his crime but its was so fucking minor and although he was guilty of it, HE SAVED A SOMEONE'S LIFE FOR GOD's SAKE! Things are not helped by his P.O. Some fucking bitch or succubus from hell. I dont know who the fuck she is trying to impress but she obviously had half her brain gone as she lacked any sense of sympathy. Fuck man she could even ask * why did he pull the guy's hair when he saved his life. WHAT SHIT QUESTION IS THAT MAN? I wanna save a guy's life so i think of which body part to pull? Oh so i should stand there and think " Oh i should pull the guy's balls so i would feel great and turn fucking gay for a change". Obviously she had no education whatsoever which had driven her to the point of asking such an outrageous question. Whatever happens, I told * to chill, serve his time and get this done and over with. Wishing or hoping harm to other people is a sin (i think) as only god can decide on one's outcome but i really hope that one day that SHE will be run down by a bus, break all her bones and such...But no one saved her life coz they were too busy thinking of which body part to pull....no no she wont die but unfortunately no amount of morphine could ease the pain. Then she will regret her STUPIDITY. That fucking bitch.

Yeah ive not been posting for quite some time. Ive been searching for a job but still in vain. There's a lot of job recommendations for me by friends but i prefer to take it easy. My aim, barrister. Unfortunately family support is not so....supportive. Always reminding me of my clumsyness ( im not pissed at that btw =) ). Yeah i do have broad flat long feet but hey that was how God made me. So coffeebean here i come!

A whole lot of things are happening this week. Abg Zul returning home, My parents going off for haj, Hanis & Fam off to Dubai, new maid (the previous one sucked), Granny staying over. Hectic but im getting used to it. The thing that worries me is IF my parents **** during their haj. When that question springs up, others would say "but if they **** during their haj, its an automatic one way ticket to heaven". Thing is, i would love for them to go to heaven but it will of course be a shock to know that your parents **** in a far away country. Preference would be that i *** before them or that they *** in their ***** bed with the whole family by their side. I cant predict the outcome la but i dont think its wrong to have preferences. Haiz (a modern sigh, one that's used by teens during emo moments but is seriously getting overused)(very malay-ish type of sigh). I will just wish them well and pray for their safety.

I miss my friends. I miss my school.
The other day i saw my school. JIN TAI SECONDARY SCHOOL. Other people may look down upon us but we also shared the same special bond during our secondary school years just like yours. SO what if it used to be a gangster school. So what the grades may not be up to standard or just nice year after year. But people overlook the ones that slog it out to make JinTai a name to be recognised (not for bad stuffs though). I went out with the lads the other day and we sat down at the coffee shop and talked about our school times. Damn it was great. From sec 1 orientation to sec 2 st john island camp. From the legendary thailand trip to Mdm Fong's surprise party. How i wish that i could return to the past. So i could really appreciate the events that happened. Well what can i do ey? Right now i could just wait for my exam results and see what future i have. But the thing that broke my heart when i saw the school building is the OBIT colour that it was painted in. Which crap architect or painter did they bring in?....shit.

I dreamt about someone last night ( OMG ITS NOT THAT TYPE OF DREAM MAN! YOU GUYS ARE SICK!). Someone i liked for almost my entire secondary years. A very nice dream la. Not to sound very emo but i really liked her and in the dream we were together. No not in the valleys of flowers and blossoms and white fluffy clouds and green green grass and the smell of pine and with me stroking her hair. Haha. It was just me and her walking down the pathway of some shopping center (modern scenario for you). Damn the feeling was great. I really remembered how to really love. Or like. Whatever. That feeling la. Ok?. It's been a long time since my hectic 'steady days'. Technically, Im a half nerd who may not get her but hey, its the ones you cant get who are the ones you want. Friends say i like her cause she's pretty. Others say she has a nice ass. Lol. But if i were only to like her looks, i would be crazy over many other girls by now. I know i may never get her. But if my cuz-in-lawz Abg Iman could do it (quite the nerd he was last time =P), maybe i can.
Too bad SHE turned lesbian.

Congratulations once again to Shahida, Citee, Nebular, Iffah, Naz, Safuan, Illy, Egg, Wanny, Tasha, WT? and the rest of the lot who passed their N levels and was promoted to Sec 5. You guys deserve it. Just dont throw it away. =D

If you want to see the dubai pics, go to this site : http://kikikakaeqa.multiply.com/
Too much pics to upload. Sorry. Enjoy ;)

Oh! I need someone to go job hunting with me. Any takers?

ilham26 @ 9:49 am
Crawls around your room
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I love you for reading my nonsense. Okay you can stop smiling now.