Il Ham Mai Hum

Monday, September 15, 2008

Had a kenduri at home yesterday.
The whole gang came down.

Honestly, I've never really expected this.
I've always thought the trip was something silent, secret, between me and HIM.
Never really expected the attention, the significance, the..yeah.
It's really a surprise & shock to me to see all this.

Maybe i've not understood it fully.
How big an occasion it is.
Though what i'd be doing is considered the smaller part.
But still.

But still, its great to see that religion still plays a big role in my family.
Religion is still something that holds our bond.
Maybe its the mix, intertwining aspects of our traditional values and religion that what we consider family is family.

I'm glad I'm Asian.
I'm glad I'm Muslim.

Seeing all these westernisationing of my country makes me ask myself this question.
Why do people over here want so much to be people over there?
IMO, we have better family values, respect, ties and humility.
Not being prejudice though.

And to hold strong in Islam.
Makes me feel that i'm out of the norm,
sets me apart from the rest,
takes me out of the majority,
and places me in God's company.
Insyallah.

Which i would seriously like btw.

But it all brings me back to this.
This...trip.
That started out as a random 'hey can i join?'
That leads to classes, sessions which opened up my mind,
opened up my heart,
clarified doubts and wrong practices.
Brings about guiding light to the already lighted path which was crooked to me before.
And it all leads to this.

To see, everyone, together again.
Just like old times.
Before all these...conflicts.
Just like old times.
The oldies sitting there laughing, chatting, having their coffee in the living room.
My generation, all held up in the bed room, teasing each other.
The young ones running about like wild monkeys with toys in their hands.
Just like old times.

I kept quiet when all of you asked me to say something.
Yes I am very shy in these situations.
But the reason behind my silence is that my words would mean nothing.
Over here though.

But trust me, my family.
The words that i will utter over there.
It will be for you, mostly.
And those words are the ones that will really matter.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.
For everything that has happened.
And will happen.
For it is all in HIS greater plan.

ilham26 @ 11:10 am
Crawls around your room
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I love you for reading my nonsense. Okay you can stop smiling now.