Il Ham Mai Hum

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Isn't a holiday supposed to be fun. With friends, late nights and laughter.

So why does mine seem to be a total bust?

Okay my parents and lil sibs are out of the country so lets party!

But it just doesn't feel so good.

Honestly speaking, i really miss my friends.

Fadlul, diyanah, sya, qyna, kinah, kerenteng jahat and cousins, my cousins, Dramamamas and papas, Captain jubo and friends and the lot of them.

Maybe i'm just sleepy. But for god sakes i really miss my friends.

Especially one of them. Who wasn't mentioned up there...........
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Maybe they're right you know. Maybe most of them are right.
Maybe I'm just too overwhelming. To impress. That i end up scaring them.
Maybe I should just take a chill pill. Let it go with the flow and see how things end up.

Maybe i'm just so afraid of being heartbroken...again...like how it always has happened. But this time, its funny. Even before trying. It has already happened..=(

But i will not let it get to me. No i won't. Coz there's this glimmer of hope there. Just a small ray of light. Seeping through those cracks. And maybe, just maybe, with time...it might just happen.

Funny how i think each and every time, it'll be the right one. And when things turn out for the worse. Well it's back to square one.

Some people say, you had 6 before. So why are you fretting so much about it?
Hello people, those were in the discovery stage. When we were young. To young to appreciate i guess. Only the last one was...haiz nevermind.

I'm not alone in this, but I'm still young aint I.

And thats the only hope that i have.

Oh yes. I should keep my mouth shut more. And it starts now.

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I feel like i'm not part of them anymore. It's like i come in and go and nothing happens after that.

I read the pirate's blog. And i see all of them hanging out and stuffs. I'm sad coz i don't feel that special feeling anymore.

Maybe it's me. I don't make the effort to hang out there. Ill just come for work then leave after that.

Why.

Oh man this is so emo.
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Alumni Nite in glances:

Dude with the big freaky hat. Thats me.

And i WILL miss every one of them =(

Abang comel and kakak cantik. And btw kakak cantik you do look super cantik in that dress/outfit thingy okay =)

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A new addition:

Welcome to the family Elysha Nadirah Herman Adam Litak (Protected by god, Precious, Her father's name, And i dont know what this means so i think its her sirname. COOL RIGHT?

Random: If i were to have a child or children insyaallah, they wont have bin or bintes. And theyll have super long names. And the guys must have Muhammad in front coz of our dear Prophet P.U.B.H. =)

ilham26 @ 11:40 pm
Crawls around your room
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I love you for reading my nonsense. Okay you can stop smiling now.